lili ❁

˗ˏˋ꒰🍥 ꒱ attempting anorexia recovery

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

hello im new to #recoverytwt and looking for moots !!

- she/her
- 16
- recovering from ana

interact to be moots ♡

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

tw // relapse
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been ia bc ed thoughts have been winning lately.. but today i decided to resist and chose to celebrate my culture and allowed myself to eat indigenous food. lots of fear foods and it was very scary but i’m glad i did it. i rlly need to get back into recovery.

[angel 🕊️ @calconvalescing]

i'm at a weight that would've made me scream and cry a year ago but i've never felt more neutral about my body. my body is a reflection of and a vessel for the life i'm living, nothing more, nothing less.

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

apparently it can take years for hair to grow back.. i feel so helpless. my hair has been my main motivation. now everything feels pointless.

[quinn @iNomToast]

“i’ll maintain once i reach x weight” it. never. ends. unless. you. make. it. end

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

@MYG0D1LOVEIT it was!!

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

hot pot 😋

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

how long did it take for ur hair to start coming back?

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

i can’t decide if i want a burger, pizza, or mexican food

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

@plaseugeo clean girl = good looking skinny white girl with clear skin and hair that never gets greasy

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

getting crumbl today

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

@iNomToast it’s the same meal everyday but in a slightly different font

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

i love fruit sm i’m so glad it exists

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

@coffeelovertje one of the biggest things that is motivating me rn 🥲 i miss my hair sm

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

@lirecovery it’s so cute! i love pingu!

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

tw // binging
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has anyone else struggled with binge eating in recovery? if so, how have u dealt with it? rlly having a hard time rn :(

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

@mycyberfruits this is adorable and i love it but i can’t help but think abt u getting the calico critters and placing them and setting up this pic 😭

[jane @fawncoeur]

i really think about this a lot

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

@louluvsfood it’s honestly just a space to fuel disorders and i think without it things wouldn’t have gotten so bad for me.. but ppl justify it bc it’s a “safe space”. it’s all so toxic and damaging.

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

@louluvsfood yw!

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

@strwbpilled they were like “mhm we have to be very careful to prevent refeeding syndrome” and then proceeded to immediately feed me 3k cals lmao i was a bit confused but idk

[lili ❁ @cinnaoats]

but my treatment team did make me do this and i’m only 4’11” 😭 should they not have done that? i felt sick everyday and was constantly full and in pain but was told it was normal