Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻

Former teacher turned software engineer 👩🏾‍🏫 Bama-born 🐘 I’m just a girl 🩷✨

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

It’s my Googleversary! It’s been 1 year since I moved to Atlanta, changed careers, & began my official journey as a working developer. So proud of how far I’ve come! 💙❤️💛💚

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

Are y'all going to CYC? 👀

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@novvaccaine Ok

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

I’ve been a bit ducked off because had a final interview on Wednesday, & I’ve been crying for the past 2 days just trying to make sense of this whole engineering journey. & tbh, it’s time for me to give up.

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@LawrenceDCodes I’m just wondering how long am I supposed to grind? I haven’t had stability in almost 3 years. I’m finally feeling over imposter syndrome & still working to show up perfect while the process is falling flat. Emotionally I just need a break from it all. I cant execute ANOTHER plan

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@MaiVangSWE Thank you for that encouragement, Mai. I will take care of myself and you do the same!

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

I say all this to say, it’s time for me to take a break tech. It would feel great to not have a plan right now. To visit my favorite coffee shop. Take a walk on the Beltline. Take my dog to a park. Commit to my skincare routine. Clean up my space. I wish you all well 🩷

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@techgirl1908 I think so too. And thank you so much! 🙏🏾 I will take a look at these.

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@DThompsonDev It was also live coding project, for context

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@DThompsonDev Thanks for the thoughts. To be clear, this wasn’t a preparation issue. I’ve been growing as an Android dev for almost 2 years, starting at Google, & landing interviews in the process. As a former educator of 9 years organization and confident communication arent struggles.

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@DThompsonDev It wasn’t about lack of prep or self-awareness. I know I can do that job, and I know I would’ve aced that interview had it gone as expected. I neglected self-care just to show up pristine. I’ve been grinding nonstop for years. so I’m taking time to take care of myself and my dog.

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@DThompsonDev I prepped for this interview for 1.5 weeks straight, reviewed 100+ qs, and built a project I could articulate line by line. The problem was that the interview format didn’t match the invite so I had to scramble mid-interview. I wasn’t able to fully tap in to everything I can do.

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@_naf_90 🫶🫶🫶

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@RoxanaCodes Thank you Roxy, I'm wishing you well as well. I appreciate that 🩷

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

I’ve been DoorDashing since the end of my Google apprenticeship in May so I can keep the lights on & buy food. AND kept practicing. Kept applying. Kept networking. Kept building. Kept learning. All to put myself on the back burner. I am not myself anymore.

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

I re-wrote every line of code 20 times, so I could do it by heart. I googled things I didn’t understand & kept asking questions until it all made sense. I did all this at the sacrifice of sleep. Of my dog’s needs. And of my own, just to be thrown a curveball. I’m so sad.

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

Since the 4th of July I poured my heart, soul, time, energy, & everything I had into a document I made of over 100 Android development-related questions. I studied every SINGLE one, & made sure I could explain every piece of architecture.

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@axel_webdev Secure the bag!

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@teneikaask_you But like you said, who cares as long as they attended GT, right?

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

@teneikaask_you This is a bit alarming because as I’ve been looking into grad school obviously GT is one of the most rigrourous, & former students even suggest taking part time classes while working full time. I don’t believe they finished that program in 2 years while working lol

[Courtlyn | Android Dev 👩🏾‍💻 @courtlyncodes]

I’m trying my hardest to not give up. It’s hard to keep up the façade that things are ok when I’m really not ok.