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I became a danger to my family I was isolated from them and wasn't allowed to see or speak with them! I was 12!!! Yet it was ok for you to carry on abusing me! By the time I was 16 I had been abused by over 150 men!!!
My education became non-existent, I was violent and angry with the world, I felt like no one wanted to save me, my mum was screaming for help, but I was just that "problem child" they said I must want it because i keep going back for more! But I didn't know how to stop it, I was very frightened. No child wants that to happen to them. I lost trust in everyone around me!
You monsters ruined my life, but I won't let you ruin my future. Ive turned into a woman I'm proud of, I'm a fighter but most of all a survivor, my life could have easily gone down the wrong path and there were times I thought I'd be dead by the time I was 16 but I'm not, I'm here thriving and fighting to reclaim my childhood, you can't ever take anything from me ever again!!!
22 years ago, you first started grooming me and 10 years ago I first started my fight for justice! You stole my childhood now I'm taking your freedom!!! I am your karma!!!
My victim impact statement 1/2
When the abuse first started at the age of 11, I just wanted friends and to be accepted. I did follow the crowd and would copy what they were doing just to fit in, until that day on my primary school playground when I met Dirty Abid and Rudy. I was only 11 and you made me do a test to see if I was a virgin or not, at that very moment my abuse started, you made it sound like it was a crime to be a virgin especially at my age, like I should have already lost my virginity, you made me feel ashamed for been a virgin like there was something wrong with me and that very same day you sent me off to a section of the school under a tree where Rudy forced me to do a sexual act on him !!! That day my innocence was stolen!
I've never felt so sick and disgusted in my life than I did after that day, I knew it was wrong, but I just wanted to belong somewhere, and you monsters took advantage of my vulnerability, fed me alcohol and drugs and after the first meeting I wanted to drink to numb out what was happening to me. You started to pass me around like I was a piece of fresh meat for everyone to have a share, from man to man and city to city !!
All 5 of you monsters played a massive part in exploiting me, you raped, abused, and trafficked me around England for your own sick and twisted sexual satisfaction!!!
Yasir, you didn't play a big part in my exploitation, but you were still a part of it I didn't even class you as one of my main perpetrators, but you still are one of my abusers. You took me behind a nursery to perform a sex act on you but it made me sick so I couldn't carry on but that never stopped you from coming back, did it? What you did was as equally as sick and wrong!
While I was still 11 years old it was only sexual acts I would have to perform, not long after my 12th birthday I was then raped and that's when my exploitation really kicked off. I remember when Maz raped me for the first time in the back of his taxi. I was so scared, my little childlike body just laid there on the back seat while you raped me, to you it didn't last long but to me it felt like a lifetime.
Siyab when you raped me, you made sure you did it properly. I'd never felt pain and hurt like that before in my childhood, you made me bleed, I was so scared to even go to the toilet!! You made sure my abuse went further than the next level not only did you rape me, you made sure it was a free for all. If the “free” drink, cigarettes and drugs didn’t make me do as I was told you would take my phone and drive me around England and then threaten to leave me miles away from home if I didn’t do as I was told. On some occasions when I refused you would become violent and aggressive !
I don't want to give you too much of my time, you've already had all my childhood and the majority of my adulthood. what I am going to do is tell you how your abuse affected me and still does to this day.
I was addicted to alcohol and drugs from the age of 12 because of you, I self-harmed and tried to commit suicide on many occasions. I've felt so ashamed and like I was the bad one.
there has been many times
I've asked myself, was i groomed? or was I really a slag like they said I was? For years I believed I was a slag but that's not true, I was just a child not a slag, nor was I just a problem child, I was vulnerable and screaming for help.
For years I've suffered and still do with flash backs, or I'll get a whiff of one of my abusers smells and sometimes 1 still hear your laughs as you raped me. I wake up screaming from nightmares, even when I'm highly medicated this still happens!!You took my childhood, my innocence, my freedom, and my family. I was forced into children's homes because of what you monsters
were doing to me. Those homes didn't protect me as they should have, infact it made it even casier for you to take me.
@JB4t00n@LukeEdwardsTele Not if you're a free thinker , bias plays a massive part, but given that most votes are split why do we have leaders that create unity ,division splits countries apart, I'm in Greece and the greeks want their money to boost their economy richer country richer people economy
@BrknMan Wow really what part of the world emissions have a direct impact on the uk? And how do countries that have higher emissions not face bigger uk sanctions
@ZackPolanski Anyone who has ever smoked will realize that smoke never stays in the same place unless in a confined space , please tell me which country suffers most from carbon emissions created in the uk ?
@CraigHope_DM So different foot and body shape at RB but that has nothing to do with it , and you report on football what a whopper , trying using your opposite hand and foot in your daily life and come back and explain the difference it makes
@LukeEdwardsTele Eddie Howe the only manager that picks burn at lb over hall fuck me hall was starting at Chelsea and dropping mom performances Vs city etc at 16 years old ,
@GOLDBABYO I called both of mine by the name can usually with an outstretched arm and open palm they both went by this name from them being able to walk until they were about 12 years old
@caseysean51 I've just watched that full clip the man to man press is there Murphy doesn't follow the full back and the 3rd man run creates the overload , we either employ the man to man press or we screen and rotate , the man to man is on EH the runner is on Murphy but that happens with 1v1s