ellie

clapped food diary (edtwt)

she/her | 21 | 🇻🇳🇺🇸 | 5'0/153cm hw: 150lbs/68kg ugw: 85/38kg

i block for trivial reasons 😅 so don't take it too personally

[ellie @cruorexia]

@chanellezss but like also some ppl be in hella denial either to save face or out of delusion from the disorder

[ellie @cruorexia]

@chanellezss I think it's bc ppl can't comprehend intentionally self-inflicting this type of physical harm and mental torture where, to them, the cons so clearly outweigh the pros. as a result, it seems to them that it isn't apparent enough that ED behaviors r so bad/unhealthy for us

[ellie @cruorexia]

@9Opounds like, try to trust urself. also don't feel pressured to do anything u don't want to yet. removing that pressure will help u recognize when ur ready or want to move forward, in general

[ellie @cruorexia]

@9Opounds low-key u don't, it just gets better with time & growing comfort. u just accept it & act brave. a general tip for nerves is to interpret the feeling of nervousness as excitement rather than fear, if that makes sense. it helps. also bc this is sth u should be excited about yk

[Anon @Anonwtbb]

can’t believe that this is 100cals, curse dried mango for being so good

[ellie @cruorexia]

found these chocolate rocks in bottles that imitate soda bottles lmaoo. they're so whimsical I had to get them. the bottles r made of glass, too.

[ellie @cruorexia]

@JasonsOnlyFan that sounds very nice and pleasant. I'm def gonna grab some the next time I'm at a grocery store that has it!

[ellie @cruorexia]

@mele1743 valid strat tho. I once saw a tiktok of a girl who keeps a small like TSA-friendly bottle of grenadine in her purse to put into sprite at restaurants instead of ordering a shirley LOL

[ellie @cruorexia]

@eatair ?

https://t.co/0Vu3DBTnVo

[tay @taylillies]

Are we serious

[ellie @cruorexia]

@venusindiet oh this looks gorgeous and delish. could we get a recipe drop, pls? 👀🤲👀🤲

[ellie @cruorexia]

@an0rtho what's konjac rice like? I'd imagine it's better for congee rather than a straight up rice replacement bc of the texture

[ellie @cruorexia]

@donutellaaaa_ TruBars r delish! they have good protein:cals ratio 4 being all natural & have some fiber. texture is a bit thick, but I just take small bites.
fav flavors: strawb shortcake, macchiato.
Mezcla Bars r good as like cereal bars with good macros. favs: maple blueberry, choco pretzel

[ellie @cruorexia]

@EllyIsPurging 😽

[ellie @cruorexia]

@EllyIsPurging ooh then I might get the carrot cake when I go today... I have been thinking about carrot cake for like a week now...

[ellie @cruorexia]

@ljlovesChrist what does the juice box emoji stand for?

[ellie @cruorexia]

@derpeyhooves make sure to chew it rly well and drink a lot of water ! it can lowky fuck u up if ur not careful 😭😭

[ellie @cruorexia]

wed July 8

no weigh-ins for a while bc no scale at my dad's place.
forgot to take a pic of lunch! it was udon soup w salmon + fruit.
I was gonna opt out of the uncrustable, but I'm glad I didn't bc I rly enjoyed it. gonna get steps in l8r to compensate tho

total: 930c

[ellie @cruorexia]

accountability thread

cw: 132.4 lbs
gw1: 120.0 lbs

[ellie @cruorexia]

tue july 7

had a banh mi bagel sandwich (one of my guiltiest pleasures) that I slowly ate throughout the day, a delish strawberry latte w/pandan cold foam, and one of those cookies. "metab"-ish day bc I need to study and make a long drive. :p

total: 1,324 cals

[ellie @cruorexia]

@tauntifer have u ever seen this guy's work?:

https://t.co/IIzdid3IVd

https://t.co/jIa7c0rI25