My most loved pictures I took of John Mayer ~ solo tour. White button~up was in Philly Oct 7 2023. Harmonica pic (my absolute fave) was in London March 18, 2023 and other pic was Paris 2023. These shows were pure magic and talent and all the things that make your heart right. π¬οΈ
All I know this moment is itβs been one of those tear filled nights. When Iβve had a few glasses and then I lose myself to the melancholy and the loss in my life. My mind vacillates between being grateful for lessons learned and falling apart at the thoughts of the past. π· on the brain. So much reflection and raw feeling floating through me and flaring my current state. ππ¬οΈ
@porcel444in These wedding photographs are so insane and I think they might be the most beautiful I have ever seenπ€β¨ of a bride and groom ever πΉπΉ
08.01.2026
It has been a fortyear and 28 days since you died.
I never loved anyone the way I loved you.
And it has been two tens the end of this year since my parents died.
I saw The Odyssey tonight and I understand like the back of my hand the pain of suffering for so many years and longing for love that has been gone for so many years.
Just waiting on love that will not show. At least her love showed in the end. Thatβs good for Penelope.
π€ πΉ πͺ¨ π²
~s
Melancholy is my vice,
not the red wine.
It lays upon me like a draping vine.
It is a heavy and warm storm ~ held captive outside of a cave. So inviting and erasing any traces of possibilities because the past.
The pain of past nestles upon me like a weighted cloak blocking my sense of where to step next.
So I just stay.. cloaked in the cave⦠safe from the heavy and warm storm, but able to watch it and almost taste it.
No sign of possibility because of the pain of past. It lingers and it stays.
Make it go away. Iβm gonna make it go away one of these days.
π―οΈπ€πͺ΄ βοΈ π² π¬οΈ
~s
Youβd be proud of me! I am working through things. Doing some healing stuff and getting back out there possibly. I miss you. I love you. You will forever be in my heart. I am letting go of the past pain. I am moving forward or at least trying to. I know you are working miracles wherever you are in whatever realm you are in. You have a beautiful soul and I know when you left this earth on July 4th it could be no other way then you going out with a big bang! Thatβs how you roll. My secret garden πͺ΄ βοΈ thoughts about you. I am doing okay! I am actually doing better than okay and I know that would make you so happy so it makes me happy π€β¨π²π¬οΈ.