i love my heart so much. i love being in my heart. i love real authentic feeling. i love when the guards come down. i love when caring is just there. i love meeting myself there. finding myself there. there i am, i've always been. oh how i want to live there, there, there
@QiaochuYuan The Lathe of Heaven ranks up there with Golem XIV and The Whispering Earring imo for relevance to what's happening right now. Hard to describe without substantial spoilers but it's like a two sit read.
ive talked to three people now who thought vibecamp a week long or more. one of them i convinced to go literally just by telling them that it wasnt. if you think you cant go because you would have to take a week off work youre mistaken, its like a long weekend
looks like i'm not gonna make it to vibecamp this year 💔. i'm really gonna miss yall.
however, for anyone who is still on the fence, esp if you've never been before, i strongly encourage going! vc has been a gigantic force for good in my life the past few years, and i don't know anywhere else like it
for me, this year, somehow i wasn't feeling the same draw to go. i've been the last 3 years in a row and they all rocked - but somehow it feels like my system needs a breather.
i'm also just really exhausted right now in general. this past month i've been in two training programs (attachment alchemy, and core transformation advanced training), + teaching metta may. it's all really good stuff but i've been riding the edge of how much energy i'm able to move through my system for weeks, closer to burnout than i'd like.
one of the things i've actually learned FROM vibecamp is how to prioritize rest, even in the face of fomo.
at vibecamp there's always been something happening somewhere at all hours of the day and night that i wanted to attend. many times i would just keep going going going, not wanting to miss stuff, until my energy was so depleted that i crashed (out) and was forced to rest. in time, i learned to prioritize my rest to some degree, even in the midst of all the vibecamp glories
i already have june 17-21 cleared in my calendar, thanks to an assumption that i would go to vc. no calls booked. no responsibilities. and right now when i look at that wide open chunk of time in my calendar... the prospect of just resting, meditating, reading, having some friend dates, organizing some things in my life, wandering around a trail, maybe splurging on a professional massage... it's soo so appealing.
one poetic frame that came to me, and that you can hold too if you wish, is that in some sense i *am* doing vibecamp, it's just that the vibe for me right now is resting in the cabin the whole time, so to speak.
(ofc this version of "attending" vibecamp doesn't help vc pay the bills, so i'm going to donate $100 to vc. i really hope it continues to exist, not least bc i want to come back in the future.)
there's no wrong way to vibe (other than ways that cause harm). vibecamp taught me about how to see life with fresh possibilities. to see that it's all one big open playground, and we can just choose to do whatever we think is best for us.
eg, i'm almost positive i wouldn't have left rochester to travel for 14 months if not for vibecamp. vc helped me learn to become more sensitive to my actual desires. not to mention, vc helped give me friends all across the country that i could stay with on my journey.
so, have a cig naked in the pool at midnight for me. make new friends in the teahouse. dance a lot. touch grass. rest when you need to. do some weird shit at some event hosted by someone you don't know that makes you wonder how life could be so cool and absurd and fun at the same time. may the vibe be with you 🏕️
@mage_ofaquarius@OpenAI "our program is like a vortex that will destroy your house and suck you out of your ordinary reality with your family members and pets"
any john churchill fans out there? i'm listening to some podcasts with him, considering joining his training program in the fall
vibes are attachment healing, mahamudra, integral synthesis, the great turning, metamodernism, bodhisattvahood
@lozareeno@ivan_unfolds oh we actually just met briefly in person on monday! at a day long planetary dharma thing. i think he's in a week of retreat rn