@SUICIDEBOYS how much can I pay yall to call my boy who loves yall to the stars and beyond? Give him some good words of courage or sumn. Idc how much it cost. Thank you either way brother leopard and brother scarecrow
I'm glad they dont go through the shitwaters I have to at times. Still it would be nice to have someone to truly relate to that isnt in a coffin or an urn
Anyone who said I was their best friend is no longer with us. I've been processing this all since 2013 and I dont think the friends still around truly understand how much that affects me.
I dont expect them to because it's not a requirement. Just feels lonely as hell. Like imagine all your best friends killing themselves and you having to just go on like life is still normal.
I know they love me, but I cant get rid of the sinking feeling that they can only take so much of me.
Like I'm the Charlie of the group and it makes me immensely sad. But fuck it, everyone has their own issue of "fml weekly" so maybe I just need to be present where I'm needed.
One thing I do appreciate about the homies is they dont do that one word text shit like your lady friends do when their mad. Dudes will talk to you if they really your dudes. Ladies tryna make an obstacle course out of a guessing game smh