cloudie

what am I doing here in this endless winter .ᐣ 💭 I miss you Noel 🕊️

[cloudie @deadwrote]

⋆˚࿔ unpinning at 75 ⋆˚꩜｡

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Should I go to the doctor ? lol

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Don’t like being human wish I was a machine

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Not really okay

[Lumi ‎꩜ @Lumixicals]

I wish i had the balls to kill myself instead of larping being suicidal

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Strawberries should not break a fast but alas…..

[cloudie @deadwrote]

88 lb? Should kill myself?

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Just feel pretty upset that they straight up and go “I hate people with anorexia” like. Okay. This doesn’t at all affect my recovery!!!!!!

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Just found out my irl lurks edtwt and then feels upset about it like???? If you have trauma surrounding anorexics why would you seek out an ENTIRE SPACE surrounded with those people…??

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Doesn’t really feel fair that sometimes people with eating disorders are sometimes really fucking mean but have we considered that maybe it’s because they’ve always been fucking mean and that having an ed may be secondary ?

Doesn’t really feel fair to group all of us together

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Okay. Breakfast. Still trying my best

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Thinking abt going back to this so I can feel like I have any semblance of control over my life. Even if I don’t remember at all what 2024 was like

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Ahhhh I miss you 79 lbs (bmi 14.9) in these

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Why did I post ass on edtwt in 2024

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Couldn’t even take a picture of my beat up knee without feeling really gross about my body

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Don’t really like feeling this way

[cloudie @deadwrote]

I don’t like my therapist much; it’s kind of hard to talk about things with her even though I really want someone to listen

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Strawberry

[audrey @phlegmme]

Gun to your head would u rather eat a strawberry or a grape or a peach or a orange or a nectarine or a cherry or a apple or a tangerine

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Kind of want to delete this account but I still have Noel’s messages here and I don’t want to lose those

[cloudie @deadwrote]

Maaaan my irls lowk don’t even fw me