Dealing with BPD

Hello, I'm 20 & I'm diagnosed with BPD, ADHD, Depression & Bulimia. And my life sucks!

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

Hello, as I've mentioned in my bio - I am 19 & diagnosed with BPD, ADHD & Depression. I'm kinda talking about my dumb life on this account so.. that's all. It's just my dumb life

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

Nothing is as painful as living in this GARBAGE world. I never asked to be born, man, why the fuck do I have to suffer with all of this??

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

I want to die. Be free from this pain. I just want to end it all

Only reason why I'm not doing it is because my mom has cancer and needs me to support her emotionally.. and financially when I'm stable enough again

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

I keep being triggered by what happened months ago. I keep thinking about this asshole who cheated on me. It's painful. It's so fucking painful

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

@lisss_21 @B0rderLi0ness I beg to differ. I don't have kids myself, but I have friends who have overprotective parents. It's just as bad. Kids need their freedom

[cba @bpdandmee]

Does anyone else with BPD feel like they give more than they get in a lot of relationships? Is it a BPD thing or are people actually not investing as much as I am? I know people are different and invest in different ways, but this feels recurring..

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

I want to stop existing

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

Ah........ Flashbacks

[Bryan Ingram 🎮: Kingdom Hearts @bryaningram93]

Gaslighting

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

I'm honestly so done with my life. I can't even get my ass to the shower. I honestly can't bear with this anymore
I don't want to talk to anyone, whether it's family or friends. I just don't have energy for that

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

I both told them off, yelled at them and told them we don't want their toxicity on NYE. Then one of my ex' friends told me I had anger management issues and that I should just "chill" while laughing at me, with my ex joining in and saying "yeah man"

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

I'm honestly beyond sad to realize how wrong I was when it came to my ex. After he cheated on me, he treated me like actual trash. No respect at all.

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

On NYE we had a huge voice chat with our community. I was one of the first ones who joined. Later on, my ex joined too. God knows why he thought it would be good to join, but whatever.

After a while arguments started to happen. My ex and one of his friends were the cause of it

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

I don't miss my ex.

I miss being loved from someone, being hugged, being told everything is going to be okay.

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

"I'm not going to drink hard booze anymore"
"I'm not going to drink alone in my room anymore"

Bitch, who are you fucking lying to?

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

I can only exist for someone else. I can only be happy when I have a partner

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

Well, not really "suffer alone"
But I feel like my friends can't help me or cheer me up anyways, so why waste their time? I've been depressed and suicidal for so long and I just know that it doesn't help anymore

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

My life crumbles down. I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't even talk to my friends.. I just.. don't like talking much anymore. All I just want to to is keep everything to myself, work and just suffer alone

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

I just want to be loved man

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

I hate not having a relationship. I feel so empty and dead. I need love. It's so painful to go through all of the things I have to go through, without anyone that loves me the way a partner can do

[Dealing with BPD @dealingwithbpd]

Can't stand my fucking brother. I go to work, my mom is ill & my brother can't be assed to help us out and do the cleaning at home. No, we have to remind him to do something for us in order for him to do something for us

In what fucking world do we live in