hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ )

21y.o. | heart broken | MDD | PTSD | anxiety | self harm | pessimistic | paranoia | philophobia | BPD | “everyone & everything destrooyed me”

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

people will pour poison into you and then call you toxic.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

today marks two months since my lil sis & dog passed away, it feels like it’s been forever since they’ve both been away & it still hurts so much.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

there is no reason i should exist, this is wrong.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

i literally have no purpose to live, i’m just here.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

don’t tell me things will get better, i’ve been waiting for too long.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

i’ll never be happy, suffering forever.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

no one hates me as much as i hate myself.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

my little sister & my dog both passed away this month, i hate my life sm.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

i don’t need therapy, i need to die.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

can the universe stop sending me angel numbers and just fucking help me already :/

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

lately i been crying like a tall child..

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

i’m not living
i’m just killing time

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

this sadness is consuming me

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

i cannot stand that i might feel this awful forever

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

i’m just trying to make it through the day without collapsing.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

life is full of insignificant disappointments.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

i don’t want to make happy memories anymore, all they do is make me sad.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

i still can’t believe that you didn’t care to realize just how much you were hurting me.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

congratulations, you’ve made me doubt my worth.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

i’m tired of wanting more, i think i’m finally worn.

[hello, im dreadful ( ཀ͝ ︵ ཀ͝ ) @destrooy]

time to relive the same day every day :’)