@DOGB1TES ocd’s a bitch lol ive always been told by psychiatrists that the best way to deal with it is to basically raw dog the feeling and go against it, the voice in ur head isnt absolute to the reality around u, i try calm myself by listing whats true infront of me it works sometimes 💔
@DOGB1TES yess same and it lingers for a while and it feels guilty to have not said anything, i feel like i can no longer say i believe in something when i didn’t defend it or stood my ground for it, and im self aware that it’s my ocd but still its hard to truly acknowledge that :(
@DOGB1TES i hate it because when im successful at finding something regardless of wether or not it aligns with my initial assumptions about them my ocd gets really bad and that becomes my new obsession until i detach myself from it by forcing myself to look away when i get the urge :/
@DOGB1TES yes! but also i do obssess over gray areas like i imagine their lives intensely and what might’ve caused this kind of behaviour and mentality for them and that often makes me obsess with finding things about someone i barely even interacted with
haven’t updates this recently but i ate 1330 kcals and walked 11.96k steps for today 💔
my ocd flared up & i had the worst body horror image in my mind of my body eating itself so im actually happy i ate more today
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