i'm so tired i think i'll collapse soon TT TT i hate people and i hate being the person who handles everything and putting the most effort in everything while everyone else just stay silent TT TT as if it's only them who's tired and exhausted hey im also fucking exhausted too TT
trus juga tiap hari ketemu org2 rasanya makin parah because i certainly absorb everyone's negative energy. dan tiap kali gue mencoba untuk retreat myself, mencoba diem dan save my own energy and sanity org2 malah komen "stop prengat prengut" like fuck u im trying to be sane here
Kayanya gua beneran orangnya sanggat irritable soalnya liat chat gua di-read doang gua sebel, kalau orang telat ketika gua udah mengusahakan buat on time gua sebel, liat orang with no sense of urgency gua sebel. like i have so many things i can find so irritating.
Mual liat ipd bukan krn takut tpi krn UDAH CAPEK. Nyawa tenaga udah kayak DI UJUNG. Life after mkar makes me think i can deal with ipd tapi CAPEK UDAH KEBURU CAPEK DULUAN ABIS OBGYN.