If you have the Holy Spirit and you are still sad, still heavy, still fighting something you cannot name, this is for you.
You are not a fake Christian. You are in good company. You have the Holy Spirit, so your infirmities can be comforted and helped.
Paul, filled with the Spirit, wrote: "I have great sorrow and unceasing anguish in my heart," and he said his conscience confirmed it in the Holy Spirit (Romans 9:1-2). Unceasing anguish. In the Spirit. In the same breath.
Jesus, who had the Spirit without measure, said in Gethsemane: "My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even unto death" (Matthew 26:38). If sorrow disqualified you from the Spirit, it would have disqualified the Son of God.
Paul again: "sorrowful, yet always rejoicing" (2 Corinthians 6:10). Both at the same time. Joy in Scripture is not a mood. It is an anchor that holds while the weather does whatever it wants.
Elijah asked God to take his life (1 Kings 19:4). God did not rebuke him. He fed him and let him sleep. David wrote "Why are you cast down, O my soul?" and God put it in the Bible twice (Psalm 42, 43). Psalm 88 ends in darkness with no happy verse at the end, and the Spirit inspired it anyway.
Romans 8:23 says we who have the firstfruits of the Spirit groan. Verse 26 says the Spirit groans with us. He is not standing outside your sadness asking why you are not over it yet. He is in it with you, praying for you with groanings too deep for words.
Jesus called Him the Comforter (John 14:16). A Comforter is only sent to people who will need comforting. Your low seasons are not proof that He left. They are the very thing He was sent for.
So if you are sad tonight, do not add shame to the weight. Bring it to Him honestly, the way David did, the way Paul did, the way Jesus did in the garden. "Come to me, all you who labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28).
Heavy laden people. That is who the invitation is for. That is who it has always been for.
A drunk policeman shot me at a checkpoint in 2011.
The bullet tore through my car, through my right hand.
I lost my career as an animator. My marriage cracked. My mind still bleeds.
The twist?
I sued the Nigeria Police. Won in 2015.
Judge said: "Pay his medical bills."
10 years later. Zero naira.
I face permanent disability without help.
@PoliceNG_CRU@TunjiDisu1@UNDP@NhrcNigeria
#NigeriaPoliceNotYourFriend
“For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also for the Greek.”
Romans 1:16 NKJV