delete tiktok. watch old movies. embrace boredom. quit doomscrolling. eat without stimulation. hang out in book shops. slow your mornings down. walk without headphones. start believing in yourself. create phone boundaries. stare out the window. visualize your future. learn new skills. seek discomfort. experience life.
The next time you see me, I won't be in love with you. I won't fight for you anymore. I know it'll be so difficult for me but I'm exhausted, so this is my surrender. You've won; I'll let you walk away.
The moment I realized I loved you more than I should have. I was ready to get hurt just to love you. I was ready to rearrange my whole life just to keep you in it. My happiness slowly started depending on you more than it depended on me.
And when you were gone... It didn't feel like I lost someone.
It felt like I lost myself.