Livia 🐇🤍

#edtwt ♥︎ 1998 ♥︎ she/her ♥︎ Black ♥︎ sw: 290lbs ♥︎ lw: 135lbs ♥︎ MDNI

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

𑣲 edrtwt intro (not new) w/ my transformation ੭

✿ Livia ♥︎ 1998 ♥︎ blk

★ High SW + longterm ED ★

𝄞 MDNI - I block freely - do not use my photos 𝄞

♡ / ↻ to be mutuals!

#edrtwt

[jojo @babybluesjo]

this is genuinely the most triggering my 600 pound clip i have ever seen holy shit

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

Forgot to log my fast

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

update: I did not do this (yay!) because I had a crazyyy GERD flare and choked on acid for a while until I fell asleep

I'm starting a Prilosec run tomorrow which means for the next 14 days I have to be real careful about what I put in my body so that I don't continue to flare.

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

I can feel myself about to order junk from 7/11 via UberEats and binge... 😭

I'm gonna ruin all of my progress!!!!!

[sarah @ritagayworths]

"why do i feel so weird and bad right now" - girl who has a disorder that makes her feel weird and bad all the time

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

🤍 Livia's Obese Situationspo Thread 🤍

》I've been obese most of my life (until the last two years; now I'm a healthy BMI after losing well over 120lbs).

◇ Left is my HW (280lbs)
◇ Right is my LW (135lbs)

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

@bunnygrl1114 wait you're so right!!! I can't work out (chronically ill and I'm just building back up walking-wise) but the insoles and the heating pad are huuuge ideas! Thank you so much ☺️

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

What kinds of stuff have you all bought for your ED/losing weight that has changed your life? With Black Friday coming up, I'm about to buy a new (better) scale but other than that I'm out of ideas. I have a Fitbit already (and I like it just fine and bought it recently)!

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

@soaked2theskin thank you ☺️❤️ it was heavenly!!

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

I mainly OMAD (and I hate portion sizes because I KNOW I'm not eating this whole thing) but today's OMAD I literally dreamed about 😭

Panda Express (Bowl-Orange Chicken w/ Super Greens).

It's a bit higher cal than usual but my limit is 800kcal and this is ~510kcal so I can graze the rest of the day (or eat this throughout the day)!

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

Bought a new scale that has all sorts of information on it because I need more things to hate about myself before I get comfortable being a fucking mess 😭

Black Friday sale made an $80(?) scale only $35 so I indulged ☺️

[౨ৎ @fawnsettas]

These are cute ୨୧

[dal @daliodoll]

“being copied is a flex” until they start stalking you, following every person you follow on your socials, be obsessive with you and keep up with everything you do in your life

[dia @intellectualspo]

people will fat shame you and then act surprised when you start starving yourself

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

@dowlaqu I did it!!

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

🤍 Livia's Obese Situationspo Thread 🤍

》I've been obese most of my life (until the last two years; now I'm a healthy BMI after losing well over 120lbs).

◇ Left is my HW (280lbs)
◇ Right is my LW (135lbs)

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

Is it okay to post situation-spo here? 🧍🏾‍♀️

I dunno how much edrtwt has changed since like ~2019 because it used to be very -spo heavy but now I think it's moved away from that (mostly for the better!!!)

But I have a wholeee thread of stuff since I've been obese my whole life...

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

@bubasusah Done!

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

🤍 Livia's Obese Situationspo Thread 🤍

》I've been obese most of my life (until the last two years; now I'm a healthy BMI after losing well over 120lbs).

◇ Left is my HW (280lbs)
◇ Right is my LW (135lbs)

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

@cleoarchive I posted it!

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

🤍 Livia's Obese Situationspo Thread 🤍

》I've been obese most of my life (until the last two years; now I'm a healthy BMI after losing well over 120lbs).

◇ Left is my HW (280lbs)
◇ Right is my LW (135lbs)

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

@keyholess Posted!

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

🤍 Livia's Obese Situationspo Thread 🤍

》I've been obese most of my life (until the last two years; now I'm a healthy BMI after losing well over 120lbs).

◇ Left is my HW (280lbs)
◇ Right is my LW (135lbs)

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

@ch3rryreps I finished the massive thread!!

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

🤍 Livia's Obese Situationspo Thread 🤍

》I've been obese most of my life (until the last two years; now I'm a healthy BMI after losing well over 120lbs).

◇ Left is my HW (280lbs)
◇ Right is my LW (135lbs)

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

I FINISHED THE THREAD

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

🤍 Livia's Obese Situationspo Thread 🤍

》I've been obese most of my life (until the last two years; now I'm a healthy BMI after losing well over 120lbs).

◇ Left is my HW (280lbs)
◇ Right is my LW (135lbs)

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

There seems to be interest in this so look out for this in the next day or two!

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

❤️ END OF THREAD FOR NOW ❤️

I kind of got carried away. Thank you for reading. I'll add to this if I remember anything else I want to talk about.

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

🤍 Livia's Obese Situationspo Thread 🤍

》I've been obese most of my life (until the last two years; now I'm a healthy BMI after losing well over 120lbs).

◇ Left is my HW (280lbs)
◇ Right is my LW (135lbs)

[Livia 🐇🤍 @dollcorekg]

17. Therapy

I tried to get help early on for my ED.

When I was a minor still, I had several therapists (my parents would drop them if they didn't like them). None of them took me seriously enough to do or prevent anything. I didn't even get recommended nutritionists or anything because I was just a fat girl who was 'larping' being anorexic.

When I went to college, initially, I was still struggling and I finally opened up about my ED and how long it'd been going on to two therapists.

The first one kind of made a ":/" face and ignored it and focused on my depression.

The second one said "oh, you just have low self-esteem!" and gave me a hand-mirror to keep and told me my homework was to look into the mirror and give myself ten positive affirmations a day.

That shit does not erase 20 years of an untreated ED.

I didn't seek help again until after I lost over 120lbs and that was when I got the official AN diagnosis.

I don't meet the threshold for a normal AN diagnosis so I'm not sure why they gave me that diagnosis but it's on my papers now for real.

Even though my parents pretend not to hear me when I've mentioned it.

Some things don't change no matter what the paperwork says.