i lied, i didn't go to sleep, i actually stayed up all night with tears rolling down my face wondering why i'm never good enough for anyone and what i did to deserve all of this.
THANKKKK YOUUUU. It’s not hard to love someone with kindness. It’s not hard to respect boundaries. It’s not hard to stop choosing yourself when your choices keep hurting the person you say you love.
I'll never respect somebody who knows your whole world is on the edge of crashing down, knows exactly what you're going through, and still chooses to do you wrong adding to the chaos instead of helping you find peace.
They say “you get what you give.”
But I never got what I gave. I gave love with a full heart and got distance in return. I gave loyalty and was met with betrayal. I gave comfort to people when they were hurting, yet when I was the one falling apart, there was no one there to hold me together. I listened to their pain, understood their silence, stayed through their hardest days and loved them in ways they never had to question. But when I needed the same, I was left feeling alone. What hurts the most is not that I gave so much, but that I genuinely believed it meant something. I believed that the love I gave would come back, that the effort I made would be appreciated, that the people I cared about would care about me too. Instead, I found myself carrying wounds I never deserved, crying over people who slept peacefully after breaking my heart and questioning my worth because I wasn't treated the way I treated others.