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accidental being

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

not even mid bmi 15 and i'm having EVERYTHING issues what a joke

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

oh tmi but my body isn't capable of pooping on its own sometimes even laxatives fail to make me go lmao

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

anyone else use laxatives everyday on empty or not just because their tummy isn't flat enough

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

i'm so fat and disgusting the numbers and the fatass i see in the mirror don't match i genuinely can't do this anymore i need to lose more weight or i'll kms

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

that's it i need to go back to chew/spit i'm tired of purging for hours everyday and using laxatives i have reached a point i can't take a bite of anything without wanting to end it all

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

chew/spit made me feel so repulsed by food i'd just stop wanting food near me or even think about eating i don't remember why i stopped

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

it's only when i purge for hours i almost meet god that i remember chew/spit exists my fatass should never swallow food

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

i just hope i can give something to the world before it dims me down completely

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

you don’t need pain and chaos as an entry fee for being alive.
you already paid enough in the past. the subscription is canceled.

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

when i'm going through a traumatic event but that's lowkey so nana of me

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

i'm invincible at this point

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

why is life way easier when you are not trying to survive it

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

when i say 'i logically don't belong on this earth'
i don't mean it in a aw poor lil ol pathetic drama queen me way
what i mean is that my nervous system has never encoded safety or attachment to existence

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

fym you've never been understood and you’re ok with that

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

get better we need you.

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

it's such a strange feeling to be surrounded by others my age and constantly perceiving such a drastic discrepancy in emotional and intellectual maturity

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

people with childlike excitement i hope you never lose your spark

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

i don’t get why people make others feel bad for being different the world would suck so bad if we were all exactly the same

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

nobody understands how much i hate being in a body these days

[zee 🦊⭐️ @eeztin]

if i eat, my body hurts badly.
if i don't, people panic and talk about hospitalizing me.

but also:
my brain is pushing me to eat
my stomach hurts when i do
my mind is terrified of weight gain

i need to be shot in the back of my head.