Partying is such an underrated spiritual ritual. The act of moving in sync to a beat with a crowd of strangers, connecting on a somatic level, linking up energetically is an inherently spiritual experience and is often the seed that grows into people's developing intuitive centers. Dance and collective connection to sound connects us to an embodied sense of our surroundings. Inebriation is usually just an unnecessary additive, I barely even think about it when I think about partying
man do i miss the days of being active in fandoms and having people to talk to. even when i was alone i knew that coming online someone would hear me.
rip to a time where the internet was fun
even watching all the girls pair up in the office hurts… my inner child’s wound seems to always be ripped open. it’s still a ghost i haven’t learned to live with and i can’t lie - it hurts more than i ever thought it could
i know it shouldn’t matter but i haven’t felt this isolated in years. i was made to believe i had made friendships that could last a lifetime only to come to terms that once again it’s me, myself, & i. my wounds have salt and i can’t flush them out
it seems like everyone around me has a best friend and i am purposely left out or no one seems to care enough to see me alone on the sidelines. the love of my life is really all i need, but i often am left with wondering what my life could be without feeling like an option
@erodarryx we’re OG ed sheeran fans. he was playing a show near me. the moment came up because ed was obsessed with justin bieber at the time and was saying he should marry him at the award show he was going to. i suggested he marry harry instead but ed said he was already taken - by louis!