so many people think they should have unfettered and unearned access to my sexuality and body simply bc I am Black and that’s what I am here for, an exotic sexual experience. it’s so gross and dehumanizing really.
dating while being a Black woman is so crazy. the way people (esp but not only men) approach me is always so more out of pocket than the responses my NB peers receive, even when we’re physically similar aside from race.
the only attractive part of sw in my brain rn is how satisfying it is being paid for being hot. like yeah sw is work but beyond that, pay me for being sexy.
need to get back into my sw accounts so i can cancel or repurpose them... esp the website. unless i start selling content again but i don't see that happening rn.
Seems like my fans only like videos which is fine! I have to get myself the energy to actually shoot daily videos/clips in a way that meshes with my life instead of taking it over and it feels like that happens every three months 😭
@angeIIore@tumblr ty but honestly if they don't restore it i think that's just gonna be the end of my tumblr run. it took way too long to get where i did (i think i was sitting at 4.3k followers) and it's not worth all the BS to try to get there again
woke up to my tumblr being terminated because of "hate speech" but literally no information on what they're talking about. literally the only way that i can consistently get clients for commissions or donations when i'm (frequently) not able to make ends meet on my own. like wtf?
@EddyTheTrinity@tumblr yeah literally just woke up, opened my dashboard, and got greeted with the "your account has been terminated" shit. i wouldn't be so upset if it weren't for the fact that i don't have a big platform anywhere else.
@personunknown@tumblr It's so fucking annoying and I'm pretty sure it was because people were mass reporting me for an argument I had with two white trans women who were being racist as fuck but decided being trans meant that they can't be racist and also I'm a transmisogynist for calling them racist.