𓅇 evenzak 𓅇

all that I needed was your reflection of me, you said I was someone - it's a lie I believe

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

I know everybody struggles with asking for help, but it's become a serious problem for me. Every time I do, the psychic damage is so immense that it takes me days to recover. And it's so unnecessary, if people didn't want to help me then they wouldn't. How do I get over myself?

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

Where do I relax in that equation? Or become productive? I feel like it's hollowing me out. I'm even developing some kind of agoraphobia where I can't be away from the apartment for too long because of the risk. How do you stop worrying about a risk that is actually real?

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

I'm really struggling with the whole state of the world at the moment. How am I supposed to enjoy anything like this? I feel like it would be easier if I was safe, but I'm not, I have to stay vigilant 24 hrs a day & between myself & everyone else who's living in fear, what gives?

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

@JEllulz Thank you! I've thought about coming back many times but I just have this bunker mentality where the worse things get, the less I want anyone to know about them. Plus I'm conscious of the fact that I've become a serious bummer of late. Like, I don't know how to escape nihilism.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

Is anyone left alive here? It's been a while. I wish I could say I'd been gone because things were good, but it's mostly because things got so much worse I couldn't stand burdening anyone with my trials and tribulations.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

@JordanSmit2k6w Yes I did thank you! Sorry this was hidden in spam for some reason I didn't see it until now.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

So I've made an error; I had an unexpected medical bill for $600 and I paid it. With my grocery money for the month. I really thought I could make it with what I had but I'm a week away from payday and I've got nothing left. Now I'm getting too weak to be able to leave.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

Thank you kind person! Crisis averted!

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

@FalconryFinance @JMKaay Hmm, perhaps you are right. Google AI seems to think it wouldn't matter, and I've avoided everything that would require it, so I don't actually know for sure, I've just been going on the lawyer's recommendation.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

Holy shit, thank you to whomever sent that money! That was a huge help, thank you so much!

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

So I've made an error; I had an unexpected medical bill for $600 and I paid it. With my grocery money for the month. I really thought I could make it with what I had but I'm a week away from payday and I've got nothing left. Now I'm getting too weak to be able to leave.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

Here's a real pro tip for all you frugal money savers out there: thinking about replacing groceries with Tylenol PM? Well I can save you a lot of time. It doesn't work, like at all. You apparently can't just sleep through hunger pains the same way as other pain, so it's a bust.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

@FalconryFinance @JMKaay I'm not exactly sure what the different ways of verifying them are or when it would come into play, but I got legal aid to take them to court for the records, and when the lawyer found out the birth records were gone, she said the cert is effectively invalid, and won't verify.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

@FalconryFinance @JMKaay Ah yes, you are correct, right up to the point when the hospital stops confirming the record. Now, I can't even risk somebody running my existing birth cert, because it will return invalid or fake

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

It's the longest of long shots, but can anyone spare a few bucks? Even five bucks would change everything, I don't even have any change left. My cash app is https://t.co/nc9ipv0xZd

Thanks for listening

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

@JMKaay Yes, that was a big help, I really appreciated that. I wish I could repay the favor somehow

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

@JMKaay Well I made it about a year without having to beg for help from strangers. I haven't made any progress on improving my situation, though. My medical records are gone for good, the hospital has lost all records pertaining to me, including, crucially, the record of my birth.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

Linda from Bob's Burgers is based on a real person

https://t.co/na2H67VmNJ

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

>so fucking depressed about this Louvre heist. French people are out here training to become cat burglars and pulling off jewel heists, meanwhile America has voted to reenter the fucking dark ages. Do you think Americans are in any kind of headspace to do heists right now? suxman

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

Charlie Kirk had only one mandate - spreading hatred to suggestible youths. He was a monster. If you wanted him alive, then you should have put him in prison when you had the chance. Maybe this will finally wake people up. If you don't put them away, someone will do what's right.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

The real talk that nobody wants to admit is that Kirk absolutely had to die. We've spent all this time pointing out that these people are fascists, no different from Nazis and some even worse, then act like there's some magical solution to deal with them other than death & jail.

[𓅇 evenzak 𓅇 @evenzak]

We've decided that we are absolutely not going to hold anyone accountable for actual crime, not going to prosecute, not going to jail. That in and of itself is a declaration that we intend to either kill them or submit to them. I don't know about you, but I know what I'll pick.