the way heeseung is so often misunderstood ☹️
🦌: the way people see me is probably… since i’m not very talkative and my gestures aren’t that big, they might feel like i’m not a very colorful person.
🦌: but… actually, i think i’m quite colorful.
🦌: i have a lot of colorful sides inside, and that’s something you feel more the longer you spend time with me
"sometimes, to love is to let go."
i don’t know if i’m going to pour my whole heart into this or if this is going to end up being a short post, because i don’t want to write while having a thousand thoughts in my mind. i haven’t planned what to say, even though there is so much going on, so i’m just going to go with the flow.
i have different, but somehow kind of similar, bonds with all the groups that i stan, because they were there for me when no one else was. they gave me reasons to keep going when i had none. they became a safe place during times when i didn’t even know how to be okay.
ever since i got into enha, they have been very dear to me. i don’t know, maybe it’s because i relate to them in some way, maybe because we are around the same age group, maybe because they found me at one of the times in my life when i needed more comfort. but not once in my life have i ever regretted stanning them, and never will i ever.
the time i spent with enha has been more than beautiful. it is something i don’t think words can fully describe. i have lived some of my happiest and saddest moments with them, and somehow, whenever i leaned on their shoulder, even from afar, i always ended up feeling a little better. that warmth is something i will always hold close to my heart.
however, with everything going on, it feels like one of the things that once gave me an immense amount of warmth is slowly tearing my heart apart. and for the record, no, i am not blaming jungwon, heeseung, jay, jake, sunghoon, sunoo, or ni-ki for it, because for me, none of this is their fault. they have always been very close to my heart, and honestly, this situation only made me realise that even more.
yes, i do regret taking my time with them for granted. yes, i do regret not stanning them earlier. but i do not regret loving all SEVEN of them. i do not regret caring for all SEVEN of them. i just miss the times when seeing their videos made me happy, even when i was feeling bad. i miss when they felt like home without the pain attached to it.
sometimes i wish i could have watched that one live, maybe that one video, maybe cherished that one moment a little more while it was still happening. because now it feels like so much of what i have left is in the past, and it is too painful to look back at any of it because my heart breaks for them.
i feel like i took my time with them for granted, and if i could, i would do anything to go back in time and cherish those moments more. i would do anything to see them acknowledge each other’s presence, talk about each other, express their love towards each other, show their support towards each other, instead of acting like they don’t exist to each other. all of this, once again :(
i’m not trying to sound insensitive towards anyone’s feelings, but i have been saying this since day one: things are for sure much more harsh and heartbreaking for ALL of them than they are for us. they have been together for the last 6 years. 6 years is a long time. you live with someone for 6 years. you laugh with them, cry with them, sleep near them, eat with them, grow with them, and go through things no one outside that circle will ever fully understand.
i don’t care which “side” you’re on, but if you genuinely think you know more about them and their relationship with each other than THEM, then please seek some professional help, because NONE of us have any right to comment on it as if we know everything.
i don’t know whether what jungwon said during his live yesterday was completely his own words or not, but for god’s sake, stop twisting what he said. he never once mentioned stopping the ot7 fanchant. he never once said ot7s are not real fans. he simply asked people to stop fighting, because of course it disturbs and disrupts the concert while they are performing. it doesn’t matter who you are. STOP FIGHTING. it is draining for them too.
he couldn’t even take his name while talking about the past, so i don’t know what makes y’all think anything about this whole situation is normal.
stop telling ot7s to move on. before commenting on someone’s bond or attachment with their group, understand that you have no idea what that person has gone through. you have no idea how hard things have been for them. you have no idea what comforted them when they were at their lowest. you have no idea what a group can mean to someone. we are allowed to feel whatever emotions we are feeling, because we are humans too. we are allowed to grieve, to miss, to hope, to hurt, and to process everything at our own pace, hope for the future to get better and see them all together.
AND grow a backbone and have your own opinion instead of blindly following what the “big accounts” who switched so fast had to say. you have your own bond with the group. your own memories. your own reasons. so grow your backbone and stand by what your heart knows.
at last, for me, enha will always be that pillow in my life that held my tears when i had no words left. they will always be that blanket that kept me warm on the coldest days. they will always be that quiet light in the corner of my darkest rooms, the soft hand on my shoulder when everything felt too heavy, and that missing piece of the puzzle that somehow made me feel a little more complete.
i don’t know what is going to happen moving forward because i’m no god. i don’t know what the future holds, and maybe that is what hurts the most. but i do know one thing: the love i had, and still have, was never fake. the comfort they gave me was real. the memories were real. the bond i felt was real.
and no matter how painful things become, a part of my heart will always remember them as seven. not because it is easy, not because it doesn’t hurt, but because that is the enha that held me when i needed something to hold onto.
i will always love them as seven, till the end, and all parts of me will forever keep hoping to see my enha as seven again very soon<3
ANY hater will be instantly blocked and reported.
i feel like after listening to jungwons clip and talking to one of my friends from Korea i feel the need to say something..
he said: 그런 것 때문에 엔진들이 싸우는 게 보기가 좋지 않다. 솔직히 공연에도 방해가 된다.
“Because of things like that, seeing ENGENEs fight isn’t nice. Honestly, it also interferes with the performance.”
because 보기가 좋지 않다 is a way of saying
“It’s unpleasant to see.”
NOT
“I hate ot7.”
앞으로 그런 분쟁을 조장하는 분들은 팬이 아닌 걸로 생각하려고 한다.
“From now on, I’m going to think of people who encourage those fights as not being fans.”
조장하다
Means „provoke“/ „stir up“
He’s NOT saying
“Everyone who disagrees.”
He’s most likely specifically referring to people he believes are actively fueling conflict.
Given the timing after the Lima concert where the physical altercations happened and the wording he chose, it’s reasonable to interpret his criticism as being directed toward people who were escalating and provoking conflict. (Both sides!)
앞으로 그런 분쟁을 조장하는 분들은 팬이 아닌 걸로 생각하려고 한다.
“From now on, I’m going to think of people who incite/provoke those kinds of fights as not fans.”
The part 그런 분쟁을 조장하는 분들. (those who promote such disputes)
He did NOT say:
-People who believe ENHYPEN is 7 are fake fans.
-People who say the ot7 fanchant are fake fans.
-Anyone who misses the previous ENHYPEN is a fake fan.
Those sentences simply never left his mouth.
he used the verb 조장하다, which means:
to provoke/stir up/encourage conflict/fights- so grammatically, the main thing of his criticism is people who are provoking fights, not people holding a particular feeling/opinion.
where the disagreement comes from is the sentence:
‘Enhypen is 7’이라는 말은 우리끼리 싸우라는 이야기다.
“ENHYPEN is 7’ is a statement that tells us to fight among ourselves.”
Some interpret this as:
“Therefore, anyone who says ENHYPEN is 7 is provoking conflict.”
Others interpret it as:
“He’s talking about people using that slogan in ways that create fights.”
That extra connection people made is an interpretation..
His main focus was on the fighting:
The repeated topic was conflict, not simple opinions.
the sad part is that even after jungwon’s words and ot7s respecting it, the fights (which he highlighted a lot) won’t cease, the fandom wont unite, ot7s want nothing to do with ot6s who only shit talk hee, or with solos who only shit talk enha, so we will continue to be separated and fighting. we were simply doomed as a fandom the second that announcement dropped on march 10.
Belift por qué solo no nos dejaste despedirnos? Por que cortar sus Interacciones como si los tuvieras que mantener lejos deun criminal.. por qué tanta tristeza y tanto irrespeto al decir que el numero no importaba.....?????
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y no piensen que lo que hacíamos estaba mal, lo hacíamos desde la esperanza de volverlos a ver juntos porque todo salió de repente y sin ninguna congruencia, aferrarse jamás fue algo malo porque tener a 7 miembros en enhypen era algo normal solo hace unos meses
most of the fans lwk just want them to be able to acknowledge each other and what enhypen as seven and the whole fandom once had more than wanting him back in the group really it just hurts to see something so persistent change so drastically without any closure