might delete later this is more emotional than I usually get about him on main, only the rdroc server has really been privy to how much could wax poetic about what birdy means to me and how important he is to me, but like this is why I get so defensive of him, he is part of me :(
I write about birdy discovering he can be loved *as* a man and getting to have a happy ending even after hes done bad things and bad things have been done to him and it helps me believe I can have that too
like not to be #vulnerable but a lot of birdys misguided ideas of masculinity, partially caused by bad influences during ones early self-discovery and how his identity affects his relationships with people is heavily based on my own and in figuring out how birdy navigates-
-those things, it has helped *me* figure some shit out too. like i always say, birdy wasnt necessarily meant to be a self insert but as ive developed him over the past almost 3 years, he now has so much of me in him and hes entirely inseparable from me. hes a piece of me :(((
like not to be #vulnerable but a lot of birdys misguided ideas of masculinity, partially caused by bad influences during ones early self-discovery and how his identity affects his relationships with people is heavily based on my own and in figuring out how birdy navigates-
I definitely dont talk about it as much as i could for smth thats such a massive part of his story but birdy v much uses his presentation to his advantage, swapping between masculine and feminine clothing/personas when need be. presenting himself as a young single woman for-
birdys development is so funny to me bc when i was first considering an rdroc all I knew was I wanted to make a character based around historical trans men and gnc folks, and a character who used their ability to change their presentation to their advantage. funnily, birdy was-
-and still identify him as ignacia for a longgg time and switching up makes it easier for him to hide and avoid being identified. he mainly does it during his time with the salinger gang given he was pretty much the *only* feminine person associated with them, and its not as-
I'm a feminine trans masc and it took a long time and a lot of work for me to figure out the relationship between my gender n how I present myself. i fear it was only natural that ended up getting projected onto another one of my trans ocs when i ended up developing him more lmao
RIGHTTT THANK YOUUUU 🩷🩷🩷🩷 birdy is genuinely so dear to me and I hold him so close to my heart. I never thought I would get so invested in him when i was first just making a silly guy to play as in rdo and now hes come so far with me and :((((((
-actually originally meant to be much more of a womanizer character bc the main historical trans man who captured my attention during my searching was harry allen. ofc that,,,,didnt follow through much, birdys a big gay loser but 😭