Itβs a really confusing paradox to feel extremely confident & that people who have me in their life are lucky as fuck, but ALSO feel like everyone would be better off without me.
Like HUH??? Both things cannot exist at once!! How do I fix my inability to choose a damn side??
Tired of feeling like that person everyone just tolerates, but absolutely cannot stand when they have to actually interact & hear me talk.
I can be at an all time high in life & mental health, then THIS awful feeling makes all the progress feel like nothing.
I think, by far, the most college student coded thing Iβve ever done was pray to god at 8:30am to please let me get a good nights sleep tonight, if itβs the only thing I receive today, let it be rest.