ive been neglecting feelings all this time just to figure out that it is fine to embrace it
just like when you’re happy and then you tend to clap your hand
same goes when you’re sad, it is fine to cry.
Their final gift to you was repeating their pattern one last time so you could finally see that despite their potential, this is who they continuously choose to be.
i avoid vulnerability to be seen
maybe bcs not everyone is up to baggages i hv. and its scary when people change their mind after knowing
though i’m more composed now, doesnt mean it doesn’t hurt when it happened.
im not angry that you didn't choose me. im angry that you pretended you wanted me. you made me fall for you, then walked away like i never mattered. you gave me attention disqusted as love. you gave me hope without commitment. and maybe thats what hurts the most.
people who lack accountability always say “you could’ve just talked to me.” no i couldn’t. you don’t listen, you deflect, and you twist everything until i’m the one apologizing