@mothmaam42069 acc are such bastards they truly are fucking insurance vampires, they wouldn’t fund mine because they said domestic violence caused more of my trauma than sa, they wanted any excuse not to fund me it’s so bullshit!! i hope they will fund you tho xxx you’re the bravest ilysm xx
seeing deafheaven for the third time tomorrow yay but even better is i MET THEM ! TODAY ! and they signed my record and their patch on my jacket AND replaced the lost guitar pick that they gave me the first time i saw them ?!!! i’m GEEKED i’m SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP
@Flinnja it all looked pretty fine when i had a peak at it! bless your heart we’ll see how much a pro service will actually be and then maybe i’ll figure something out idk
devastated to learn that my piano cable (which i finally replaced after 6 months) wasn’t the issue but the piano itself is fucked and very expensive to fix, what if i just walked into the ocean
coworkers being so kind and trying to organise something for me and i keep being like haha no please it’s fine cos i don’t know how to explain i don’t feel celebratory without trauma dumping and ruining the mood
couple people been asking what i’m doing for my birthday soon and i don’t have the heart to tell them i’m doing nothing because it’s days from cals death anniversary and i will never be able to celebrate my birthday properly again lol
this week will be horrible, it’s already horrible and it’s only monday, i’m so sick of being followed everywhere by the spectre of grief . i want to go to sleep . i’m so tired