Mari || Fraise 🍓

♡edtwt♡ ||currently trying to relapse as hard as I can|| ru/eng starting bmi-16.5 lbmi~14 ugbmi-10 || ANA COACHES AND OTHER WEIRDOS DNI ||

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

Redoing my pinned🍓
♡ she/her
♡ in my teens
♡ edtwt & shtwt (mostly edtwt)
♡ new to having an ed, not diagnosed
♡ sh for ~4 years
♡ I post literally every thought I’ve ever had so I’m rly active

♡/↻/💬 to be moots🍰

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

i’ve gained A LOT of weight, im literally fatter than my sw, but i can finally feel the ana coming back
idk what was my wake up call, but i’m finally regaining control of myself
i’m resuming starving myself, wish me luck everyone <3

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

i’m having dinner with my parents and their friends + the friends’ kids at a really nice asian fusion place and i’m literally being the best ana rn. i ordered myself a viet coffee and nothing else, i took like two sips of it and now i’m literally just drinking water😭😭😭

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

guys, how many kgs do you think i can lose before september 7th??
i’m going to get a gym membership for the gym in my apartment complex so i’m probably going to go there every day
i don’t really want to fast since it triggers binges, but i’m gonna try low res again…

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

@Hellbentondying omg wait what bmi is thissss???

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

@tofukcalories thanks🫶🫶 literally feels like getting hit by a truck :(

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

recovery cancelled, everyone
i weigh 3 kg more than my mom
literally about fucking start cutting the fat off my thighs with a kitchen knife, not even kidding

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

@mdma85267 fr :D

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

@mdma85267 i have the EXACT same lighter😭😭

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

Tbh nothing pisses me off more than ppl saying that the “girl dinner” trend promotes EDs
Like bffr all of the “girl dinners” I’ve seen are 99.9% carbs, sugar, and saturated fat😐😐😐

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

@VioletsGirlblog Oml I REALLY need this😭

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

Hi guys…
I’ve been trying to recover but I fucking hate it
Im fatter than I’ve ever been
Im 49kg rn
I’ve started working out everyday, but it’s not enough
I really want to relapse so I need all the tips I can get, I NEED to get back to my honeymoon phase

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

@raincandyED yeah, it made me feel so shitty
i spent like 30 minutes sobbing in my room
this was the first time in a while i’ve cried about my how i look/my weight…

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

i was genuinely trying to recover and it was going pretty well, but my mother just said that i “look so cute” because my “face has gotten rounder” and my “cheeks have gotten bigger” 🙂🙂🙂
so i’m back to starving, everyone!!!! xD
(i can’t stop sobbing and about to kms)

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

i just want my lw back…
(old-ish bc)

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

@mdma85267 i’m never beating the weird girl accusations💀💀

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

the comments under one of my tiktoks💀💀💀

[Mari || Fraise 🍓 @fraise_cals]

@raincandyED Nawwww that’s super not true😭😭😭 i gained so much, but even at my lw I was so much fatter😭