I know the feeling. I had to cut down my peach tree this spring. It has been slowly deteriorating over the years. It blessed me 2 years ago though with some of the best peaches I've ever had. They are one of the hardest trees to grow as they are prone to trunk canker and the leaf wilt thing. I planted another one so we will see.
I spent most my life dealing with anxiety, depression, and feeling like I had no control over my life.
I got off medication and slowly rebuilt everything.
Here are the 10 tools that actually helped me heal and build the life of my dreams: