I feel like I need to land here and appreciate the palace forming around me actually. Stop wondering what's next, stop trying to productivity or achievement maxx. Just vibe in this moment. Maybe I dont need to be perpetually in motion. Take a break from grasping and just be.
@RichDecibels Oh this is a very good list! Recently dealt with a person at work who reminded me of my mum and these behaviours are like a checklist for the similarities. I wonder how to work through this stuff; I have very strong walls that I can't afford to let down with these people.
This is one of the most privileged problems I've ever had:
1. I have a boyfriend who i like a lot and I'm feeling ok acknowledging grumpiness at him
2. I have a gym membership
3. I own really good shoes
4. His dad is comfy enough that he has a flat we can sleep over in
Lowkey mad at my boyf because I forgot my running shoes at his dads house and he says they're not there but im pretty sure the cleaner just moved them and he's not looking hard enough and now I have to suffer through gym in my birkenstocks
Cat woke me up 4x last night. Making coffee I discovered that the milk leaked all over the fridge. Which distracted me from the coffee machine running so it overextracted. As I realised it needed to be switched off I nearly knocked the olive oil off the counter (lucky catch)
an extremely high level strategy for getting unstuck is to commit to the stuckness
try to be 10x more stuck. act out the persona of the perfectly stuck person. indulge the stuckness. savour it. enjoy every moment of it
paradoxically, by leaning into stuckness, you create relaxation. you take all the energy that was going to shaming & beating yourself up and you free it. now that energy can go towards fun. when you’re having fun, things start moving
I have given this strategy to a handful of clients and used it myself and it has never failed. the only way out is through
@strangestloop Read a lot of ai safety research papers while organising meetups and touring community spaces around the globe. Do weights or swim every day. Cook interesting meals for friends. Bake bread every week. Visit the most interesting swim spots I can find. Be affectionate to my bf
There's an essay I want to write about moloch, golden handcuffs, and boys school boys. Do I even need to write it though? Do you catch my drift from just this string of words alone?