fear of abandonment can show up as randomly getting ‘icks’ about people we are normally excited about. pushing them away, focusing on their flaws etc. it’s called deactivation, and usually happens to stop any further emotional bonding with someone to avoid any pain if they leave
@CTheCurator Always try to pay it off in huge increments and it helps to make two large payments instead of all at once. It’s stupid but it does help your credit score