most of what i really dislike about chapter 5 can be solved or at least forgiven if chapters 6 and 7 are basically written flawlessly. like genuinely my biggest issue with chapter 5 is that it's the fifth chapter
a very niche type of despair only felt when you are perpetually disgusted with yourself & wanting so desperately to be Anything else yet you cannot escape bc you are yourself and you are forever yourself and stuck as yourself with no reprieve