Warner Mendenhall pointed me toward this book.
He recommended The Spiritual Combat during the darkest part of what this community has been moving through.
He was himself navigating stage four cancer with the same courage and faith and refusal to surrender what mattered that he brought to every courtroom he entered for the vaccine injured.
He wrote to me a few days ago.
And now he is gone.
The spiritual combat and the external combat for freedom and medical justice are the same fight.
The interior ground and the fight for the dignity of the injured are the same ground.
Warner knew this.
He lived it completely.
Until the very end.
This essay is dedicated to him.
May he rest in the peace he fought so hard to give to others.
And may the fight he gave his life to continue in every person he inspired to keep going.
@MendenhallFirm
Take Up Your Cross and Follow me.
“If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross and follow me.” — Matthew 16:24
The cross He was describing was not yet a religious symbol.
It was an instrument of Roman execution, the specific, brutal, public mechanism by which the empire eliminated threats. When He said take up your cross, the people listening knew exactly what He meant. They had seen people carrying crosses to their own deaths.
He was describing a voluntary descent.
The turn from the self-directed life. not the abandonment of the self but the reorientation of the self around something other than its own interests and the willingness to follow wherever that reorientation leads. Including into the places the self would not have chosen.
For many in this community, the cross was not chosen.
The vaccine injury was not a voluntary descent. It arrived uninvited and took things that were not offered.
But what is chosen, what remains within the sphere of genuine decision, is what is done with the carrying.
Whether the suffering is carried alone or with Him. Whether it closes the heart or deepens it. Whether it becomes the end of the story or the ground from which something the comfortable life could never have produced begins to grow.
Take up what is yours to carry.
Many think the cross of Christ is burdensome, but Jesus helps you carry it.
Follow into whatever it opens into.
Drink from clay.
Clay is porous. It cools water through evaporation, filters impurities, and releases calcium, magnesium, and potassium into every sip. The same material your ancestors stored water in is now being studied by modern scientists for what it does that refrigerators cannot.
Cook in cast iron.
Cast iron holds heat longer than any modern pan, distributes it evenly, and adds small amounts of dietary iron to your food as it cooks. A pan your grandmother used is still the most efficient tool in the kitchen.
Eat from wood.
Wood does not leach chemicals. It does not retain bacteria the way plastic does. It is antibacterial by nature, gentle on food, and has been the material of choice across every culture on earth for thousands of years.
Store in woven material.
Bamboo and rattan regulate airflow. They prevent moisture buildup. Your food breathes inside them instead of rotting.
These are not trends. These are technologies that were working long before plastic was invented.
The modern kitchen replaced performance with convenience. It is time to reverse that.
COVID changed something in me that cannot be unchanged.
Not the virus. Not even the mandates. What changed it permanently was watching every government on earth arrive at the same silence, at the same moment, and hold it for six years running.
Nearly six years since the rollout began. Not one head of state has stood before their people and said: some of you were harmed, we know it, and you deserve an honest accounting. Not one parliamentary inquiry with genuine authority. Not one compensation framework built on the actual scale of injury. The vaccine injured remain without diagnostic codes in most countries. Without legal recourse. Without the most basic institutional acknowledgment that what happened to their bodies was real.
This is what accountable institutions do after genuine public health emergencies. They review. They audit. They ask who was harmed and how. They produce findings that are uncomfortable because the discomfort is the point. The discomfort is how trust gets rebuilt.
What we have instead is a wall. And behind the wall, people who lost careers for raising questions that turned out to be legitimate. People who watched their governments promote Long COVID with full institutional weight while refusing to ask a single honest question about overlapping presentations in the vaccine injured. The same symptoms. The same mechanisms proposed in the literature. The convenient frame that points in every direction except at the product.
The coordination is what tells you the most. Individual negligence looks different. It is patchy. It is inconsistent. Individual negligence produces whistleblowers, outliers, one government that breaks from the rest because the political cost of silence finally exceeds the cost of honesty.
What we have is not that. What we have is universal. And universality of this kind does not emerge from independent actors independently deciding to do nothing. It is decided.
There is a particular cruelty in what this does to the injured. It is not just that they are uncompensated. It is that the silence communicates something to them about their value. That they were considered acceptable losses before the fact, and inconvenient liabilities after it. That the calculus was made, and they lost. The psychological cost of that message, delivered not once but every single day through continued institutional indifference, is its own injury layered on top of the physical one.
The children absorb this too. They are watching their parents fight for recognition against institutions that will not move. They are learning what governments actually mean when they say they will protect them. They are developing a relationship with authority that no civics class will be able to undo.
The universal silence of world leaders on vaccine injury is not the behaviour of people managing an honest disagreement about evidence.
It is the behaviour of people who have made a collective calculation that the cost of telling the truth now exceeds the cost of never telling it.
And that calculation, held simultaneously, across every major government on earth, is the most important public health finding of the last six years.
Not what the virus did. Not even what the vaccines did.
What the silence, together, reveals about who was making decisions, and who they were making them for.
At this very moment, accounts speaking about what is happening in Gaza are being restricted and hidden, including my account and the accounts of journalists trying to show the truth to the world.
It feels as if our voices are being deliberately silenced, as if there are people who do not want anyone to see the pain we are living through every single day.
The war never truly ended; it has returned in another form, quieter but even crueler… constant fear, hunger, loss, and days that feel like endless nightmares. We are slowly dying while the world watches everything and barely moves.
We are not asking for much, only please do not leave us alone. Speak about Gaza, share the truth, and do not allow the remaining voices here to be silenced. Because behind every image and every headline, there are real people trying to survive this pain every single moment.
Twice a month mix 3 milliliters in a glass of Orange juice and down it. REMEMBER WHEN the Media laughed and said ivermectin was ONLY for horses and cows? THEY KNEW it was made for people since 1987.
Here’s what they didn’t tell you 👇
1 – It prevents the damage caused by drugs created using mRNA technology, blocks the entry of Spike Protein into cells and, if the person was vaccinated, they can treat themselves for damage already done through Ivermectin.
2 – It only has beneficial effects and no harmful effects in the treatment of the C virus. In fact, even before entering the cell, it has already destroyed the virus in the blood.
3 – It has a very powerful anti-inflammatory action against and has a powerful impact on traumatic and orthopedic injuries, it strengthens muscles and has no side effects like corticosteroids.
4 –It treats autoimmune ailments such as: rheumatoid arthritis, ankylosing spondylitis, fibromyalgia, psoriasis, Crohn's disease, allergic rhinitis.
5 – It improves the immunity levels in cancer patients and treats Herpes Simplex and Herpes Zoster, plus reduces the frequency of sinusitis and diverticulitis.
6 – It protects the heart in cardiac overload. In an embolism for example, it prevents cardiac hypoxia because it stimulates the production of basic energy so that the tissue is not destroyed and thus improves cardiac function.
7 – It is anti-parasitic, anti-neoplastic (anti-cancer). Allegedly, it suppresses the proliferation and metastasis of cancer cells, preserving healthy cells and improving the effectiveness of chemotherapy treatment.
8 - It can kills cancer cells resistant to chemotherapy, defeating the resistance to multiple chemo-therapeutics that tumors develop, and combined with chemotherapy and/or anti-cancer agents, it provides an increase in the effectiveness of these treatments.
9 – It is antimicrobial (bacteria and viruses) and increases immunity.
10 – It reaches the Central Nervous System and regenerates the nerves.
11 – It helps to regulates glucose, insulin metabolism, cholesterol levels and reduces liver fat in steatose.
12 - It can be used as a prophylactic agent and has been associated with a significant reduction in infection, hospitalization and mortality rates due to C-19.
The recent Space on X with Dr. Carlos Rivas on The Dr. Margaret Show was exactly the kind of conversation the vaccine injured community needs more of.
Dr. Rivas (@CarlosRivasMD), an integrative and functional medicine physician specialising in vaccine injury and post-viral syndromes, laid out a framework that the mainstream medical system has consistently refused to engage with honestly and not many doctors out there who do.
The core of what he described is something many of us have been living without the clinical language for.
Persistent spike protein, continuing to circulate in exosomes, continuing to drive inflammation long after the acute phase, producing the kind of multi-system, difficult-to-categorise illness that standard blood panels consistently miss. Microclots composed of misfolded spike and fibrin proteins that D-dimer and standard coagulation tests are not designed to detect. Cytokine dysregulation, elevated IL-6, IL-1, TNF-alpha, maintaining a chronic inflammatory state that conventional medicine keeps treating as separate unrelated conditions rather than the unified picture it actually is.
Autoimmune conditions appearing where none existed before. Cardiac and neurological involvement. Brain changes that mirror Alzheimer’s pathology in people who should not yet be anywhere near that territory.
And the medical response to all of this, in most cases, has been the dismissal that every injured person reading this already knows intimately.
What struck me about the conversation is something I have been saying from the beginning of my own journey.
Sunlight. Grounding. Mitochondrial health. Fasting for autophagy. the body’s own cellular cleaning process that breaks down damaged proteins including persistent mRNA. Mental health. Spirituality. Faith. The pillars that no pharmaceutical company can patent and no hospital can bill for, and that therefore remain largely absent from the official treatment conversation.
To Dr. Rivas, to Dr. Margaret Aranda and The Rebel Patient team, and to everyone who made that Space possible, I appreciate , salute and thank you. These are the kind of spaces we need on X and truly it’s my favourite space on X.
Dr. Margaret is an absolute wonderful human being
And her team have Miss Bartlett and Denver Haslam as well.
This is what the conversation needs to look like.
Doctors who test properly, treat the actual mechanism, and honour the full human being in front of them, not just the labs that fit neatly into existing billing codes.
I don’t say this is the answer but it can help many people who don’t have doctors who listen.
Please find the replay. Share it with everyone you know who is searching for answers. Even though we have tried so many things, it’s always good to share information 🙏
@DrMargaretShow@CarlosRivasMD@denverhaslam@ourptrights@Michell87463246@AmyMorg56188253@SharonFrro
Gratitude is not something you do.
It is something you become.
That distinction matters more than it might first appear. Gratitude practiced as a technique, a list written before bed, a ritual acknowledgment of good things, has value. But it remains on the surface. It is the mind performing an exercise rather than the heart inhabiting a different relationship with existence itself.
Genuine gratitude is a state of being. A fundamental reorientation toward life that does not depend on circumstances cooperating. That can coexist with pain, with loss, with the full weight of what has been taken, because it is not gratitude for the circumstances. It is gratitude for the simple, irreducible fact of being here. Of being aware. Of existing in a universe that did not have to produce consciousness and did.
The neuroscience behind this is genuinely striking.
Research from UCLA and other institutions has shown that the practice of gratitude activates the medial prefrontal cortex, the region associated with moral cognition, empathy, and the capacity for positive social connection. More significantly, sustained gratitude practice increases dopamine production in the brain’s reward circuits, not the shallow dopamine spike of a notification or a sugar hit, but the deeper, more sustainable activation associated with meaning and genuine connection.
Studies by Robert Emmons at UC Davis, among the most rigorous in this field, have documented measurable improvements in sleep quality, immune function, blood pressure, and markers of inflammation in people who maintain regular gratitude practice. The body responds to the psychological state. The nervous system, calibrated toward threat detection by default, begins to recalibrate when the mind consistently returns to what is present and good rather than what is absent or threatening.
This is not self-help language. It is biology.
The state of gratitude is a different neurological environment. And the body heals differently in it.
For those of us carrying serious illness, for whom the body’s condition is a daily, relentless reality, this matters enormously. Not as denial of the difficulty. As the recognition that the nervous system’s state is not fixed by the diagnosis. That within the same body, the same symptoms, the same circumstances, there is a choice available about the quality of consciousness brought to each moment.
I practice this in the most unlikely places.
I am grateful for the people who read these words even though I am shadow banned.
I am grateful for the faith that has held when everything else gave way.
I am grateful for the present moment, which is the only place God has ever been found.
Gratitude is not the conclusion of a good life. It is the foundation of one, available even here, even now, even in the hardest circumstances you have ever been asked to carry.
Return to it. Not as an exercise. As a homecoming.
The war is no longer just about bombing; it has become a harsh daily struggle for survival. We live amid hunger, disease, shortages of medicine, rising prices, and declining aid.
I am the sole provider for my family, and I can no longer bear this burden.
I created this campaign to provide food and pay rent for my family.
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