remi🌟

23, they/them. mentally ill wine drinker. under 18 don’t follow.

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

@MeloncholyBoi ur art is so cool!! I love the fur textures

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

@MeloncholyBoi real

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

if u just told me i’d be chill but i whatever??😔👎

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

i was feeling fulfilled and validated all night until this friend started acting weird without telling me why literally on my 21st bday 🤨

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

hair on my head is falling out again too! going bananas

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

not itchy scratching like reacting to paranoia that it shouldn’t be here (it’s skin ofc it should be there)

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

vent but i’m having such weird intrusive thoughts about having a body and physically existing at all i plucked all the hair on my left leg individually to stop myself scratching all my skin off it’s driving me insane

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

@istolimit seeing this cropped i thought it was like a skirt on a mannequin for a full 10 seconds

[lia @malborodiet]

wieiad model tiktoks 🥯☕️🍦— a thread

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

@missdiorly no he would be pr0

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

i went over to a friend’s tiny apartment last night and got way too high bc of low tolerance and a/dd3rall before meeting her other friend for the first time and this second girl and i just talked about (healthy) volum3 eating benefits for an hour

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

cool self hatred from that so ill lose if i start to s/h by ⭐️ving instead of b1ng!ng again

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

did the same hungover binge i used to do every week and i feel so bad w/o even eating all of it how was that ever happening

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

@boneypumpkins it’s always on my mind tbh. i keep telling myself it’ll happen when i reach ___ gw but bc my own situation is so control-based i can’t see it happening w/o extensive therapy or medication.

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

to clarify this is a combo of overthinking anything food related (d1$ord3rded!), lots of adderaII, hating the fact that i have a human mouth (O/C/D) and literaIly not being able to use my wrists for silverware.

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

something so embarrassing about eating slowly!!! cousins on theirs 2nd or 3rd helping and i swear im doing the best i can to be normal

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

it’s the only thing that helps me not think about my wrist pain! once i’m 21 and it’s easier i’ll switch to edibles sure

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

anyways slightly concerned i’m developing a dependence on alc0h0l less than a m0nth from turning 21 lmao

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

@cybernarcissus yes!! this was similar to me lmao

[paget brewster @pagetpaget]

@pamelaisl3y I tried girls in the 90's. It didn't take. But I regret nothing.

[remi🌟 @growinglemons]

sorry i’ve been absent lately!! yesterday doctor confirmed i gave myself c@rp@l tunneI in both wrists and i’m using voice to text for everything so obviously it’s been difficult to talk out loud about e@t1ng d1sord3r t0pics ahaha