yg ditakutin bukan being fool sih tapi losing yourself bc too atached to that person. kayak takut banget kalo terlalu jatuh ke orang itu bakal ketergantungan to the point yg lo gabisa hidup tanpa dia. that's the worst nightmare.
not suicidal but if someone kill me right now id say thank you because im so fucking tired with this heaviness. to top it all, i dont even fucking think im allowed to feel tired
caraku menyelamatkan diriku adalah dengan menerima bahwa aku jg bisa salah, bisa jahat, bisa nyebelin. I accept that I can be villain too in someone else's story. Abis itu lebih tenang, bodoamat, dan fokus.
exactly, most of people yg "ngedeketin" ak katanya seneng liat ak yg always happy, cheerful, sangat extrovert, penuh energi, yappin a lot... smpe mereka ngeliat aku di posisi terendah ak, gada smangat, no spark at all, jarang yappin, diem, mreka lgsg brubah and yap u kno the rest
Kayanya emang orang-orang harus siap mengakui bahwa:
1. Love needs a lot of maintenance and taking care of
2. Acknowledge (kindly) that you are not capable of doing it
Kebanyakan dari kita gamau mengakui hal tersebut dan it's either blaming on the situation, or on us
Sakit sih