Looking back, everything changed when I realized how much I said “I hate you” internally. I truly HATED myself and ruminated over all my failures and the bleak future I saw ahead for myself and my family I had created to live in shit too, apparently. I was unemployed, had a useless degree and a pile of debt, my marriage fell apart because we both sucked. I hated myself.
Anyway one day sitting in our crappy apartment I decided I would start saying “I love you” every time I caught myself saying I hate you. I did not believe it or feel it, I just worked on changing that one reflexive habit. I hate you, I love you. Omg I hate you, omg I love you. A thousand times a day. My inner monologue was HATEFUL (why I was so sad to think “well this is just my brain”.
After that I started finding things to be grateful for in my sad little life, or really reflecting on things I managed to pull off. Looking specifically for the good brought a lot more to the surface.
Over the next 10+ yr my thinking has really evolved. I can’t believe I’m saying this but I make over six figures in a job I love, my kids are doing really well, I get along with my ex, I own my own home and have several crafts and hobbies I love to pursue. I have a tiny tight circle of wonderful friends and family. I’m genuinely so blessed and most of all I’m mentally at peace.
That part came first, and everything else follows. Don’t wait until things are perfect to relax. Relax first. You’re fine. You’re wonderful. I love you and you should love you too.
It’s not all going to be okay; it already is.
turns out, reading voraciously, moving your body, loving people without keeping score, protecting your solitude, chasing nothing but your own growth, and occasionally staying out too late with people who make you laugh until it hurts is not a bad way to build a life.
@UY96_@visualbasic97 You will, things are about to get wildly better for you specifically and there’s nothing you can do to stop it (not that you’d want to) and a year from now you’re going to remember this post and be like “lol holy fuck it actually happened”
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@RestoreBritain “When you have a tumor, what do you do? Do you sit it down and say, 'Hey, tumor, let's get along, ok?' No, you take a knife and cut it out!"
-Dr Nora, Frasier
Apparently, not wanting to be dismembered in the streets, or your son stabbed to death, or your daughter raped, is now "far right".
Blimey. Doesn't that make everyone "far right"?
unfortunately part of who i am is that sometimes i need to go thru entire weeks of such severe depression that it’s an affront to god and the majesty of his creation
Ahhhhhh so the 2TB @Google One storage I’ve had for almost a decade is now a “Google AI Plus”subscription (despite me having no plans or desire to use their AI).
And yet overnight they’re instantly going to have millions of subscribers to their “Google AI Plus” subscription.
Clever.
Greasy, but clever.
I’m a lifelong conservative who is fed up.
I don’t want data centers poisoning our communities and land.
I don’t want a damn camera recording me without permission.
I want American jobs and housing to go to Americans.
I don’t want a single dollar funding foreign governments.
I don’t want everything owned by a hedge fund.
I don’t want any more chemtrails or bio weapon vaccines.
I don’t want my kids taught things that undermine truth.
I can’t be alone.
If the huge number of voters who keeps sitting out would speak up, surely we could oust every single incumbent, ALL of them.
It’s America 250. My people laid their lives on the line to make this possible and it has been stole from us.
I want America back.
@BonsaiBroz I used to work for Streamlabs and a few streamers (one rhymed with Smokey Mane) had SO MUCH MONEY like tens of thousands in donations just sitting in Stripe because they never connected payout bank accounts. It was so weird.
I dont talk about this too much but I was absolutely terrified to have kids.
Truly terrified.
All of that melted away when my son was born.
The second I saw him, something in me changed forever and it has never switched back.
My life was no longer about me, there was this tiny, helpless, perfect little boy looking back at me.
And I just knew.
I thought fatherhood would take something from me (money, time, freedom).
And yeah, it takes all of those things haha
But what it gives you back is infinitely greater.
It gives you purpose.
It gives you a reason to become the kind of man you only PRETENDED to be before.
It forces you to stop living like your choices only affect you.
A common misconception ive seen is that people think they need ti wait and be ready and then become a parent.
This is false. Nobody is ready.
You become a parent, and love molds you into someone who can carry the weight of being a parent.
Every single parent has experienced this and it’s so beautiful.
The psyop men fall for is, “You can have kids anytime.” While true, the other side of this coin is, “Every day you delay kids is a day you don’t get with your grandkids.”
@DeeRene_ Tubi is IN FACT the only true performance art left! Their passion and your imagination have to put in the work to fill in the massive gaps 😂 😂
I did it once. I shrunk down and away and got stuck within a molecule of sweat trapped between my left leg and the fabric of the pants I was wearing. I couldn’t get down, out, or away, I could only exist as my liquid self, and the universe cycled around me for an unknown amount of time. Frozen.