the way your heart shatters and goes up to your throat after you hear something you never really wanted to hear is hands down one of the worst feeling ever
Best thing you can do for yourself next year is learn to let people go early. Let them go once you see the red flags, let them go once you know you both don’t align, let them go once you no longer have your peace with them around. Let people go. It will hurt, but it will save you