— you had no idea how much pain and suffering it took to be this gentle. instead of letting my edges become sharper, i made them softer. instead of letting my roses grow thorns, i tended to them, took care of them. you had no idea what i have had to do to protect my peace.
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For the nth time, I become that someone who hold their memories only because they couldn't bear to let go. 𝘍𝘶𝘯𝘯𝘺 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘺, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩.
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Its like playing with a tired old 𝘤𝘭𝘪𝘤𝘩é 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺 as I observed her, watching her go about life as she yearns for something she could've had right now instead of ours.
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From there, I see myself in agony. Swallowing the lump in my throat as I stand in for someone I could never truly replace. I felt like a pale shadow.
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