Lose weight NOW.
Most fat people don't start exercising because they know they can't lose it all in 4 months and that's why they don't do it.
If you're only a little chubby now it can take only 2 months to get perfect.
Better to start now than later.
i tried to be healthy for him! if it doesnt fucking matter why am i bothering? let me just look how i want to look! fuck it! it doesnt fucking matter if he prefers thick thighs! bc he wont want me either way!
im genuinely so fucking miserable! it feels great knowing that no matter whether im skinny or im fat, he doesn't want me! it feels so fucking great!
i lost weight, nothing! i gained weight, nothing!
i got high! cried! begged! something!
back to nothing again!