sometimes we can be so used to self-deprecating that it becomes second nature to ourselves and that can be dangerous. to constantly speak toxic things to yourself that simply aren’t true. you wouldn’t dare treat a friend like that but yet you feel comfortable doing it to you.
there’s no strict time frame for your pain to exist inside of. if it hurts you, it hurts you. if you feel betrayed, feel betrayed. feel your emotions all the way through. don’t force them down because you don’t want to make shit weird. shit got weird when they fucked you over.