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tammy •
TW: ed | sh
☽˚.⋆.𖥔 ݁ ˖ 𔓎 25 y.o. vegan autistic gremlin 𓉸ྀི.
°🖤 pro recovery 🖤 minors dni 🖤 fat phobics fuck off

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

Unpinning when I'm back in BMI 16 range

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@kuromicIs Hope you can enjoy it 🥺💜

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

Binged again and now I feel so suicidal...
I haven't felt this awful in months, but I'm too tired to care

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

Wieiad: (yesterday)
1,791c - burned: 621c (definitely more, but had to take of my watch during the punk gig)
260.99g carbs, 48.81g fat, 69.96g protein
Steps: 13,710 (same story, definitely more)

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@ephemeral_diary Feel you :((
I'm here if you want to talk about it.
I know it's not solving the issue, but I thought I let you know anyway

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

Working on my triggers rn and have to figure that out, but I know as soon the disgusting unhealthy food is gone I'm back.
+ Not too much is left anymore 💀 well cuz I binged on it

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

Went grocery shopping today and mainly just bought fruit and veggies (besides a pack of rice, mie noodles and two blocks of tofu)
Still have to get rid of all the unhealthy stuff, cuz since I got badly triggered last week (trauma) I can't stop eating bullshit.

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@ephemeral_diary Thank you Vivi 🫂 this made me tear up a little ngl

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

What if I recover and get even fatter?
Would you still want to be friends with me :((
I don't think so
Most people stop interacting with me as soon they see me start eating a little more, or worse binge...

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@ephemeral_diary And no that doesn't mean you have to even it out tomorrow!! Or to punish yourself.
(It just makes it more likely to bringe again 🥲)
You deserve all the good things in the world okay???💕

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@ephemeral_diary I'm so sorry 🫂💕 and feel you
I really thought I would manage not to binge today but oh well....
Don't be too hard on yourself.
Tomorrow is a new day 🫶🏻

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@ephemeral_diary Very off topic, but your necklace is so cute aww
(Also luv chocolate - I feel U)

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@ephemeral_diary Thank you angel :((

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

Guess who binged again
Ughh I need to get rid of all the food I have rn so I can buy just fruit and vegetables.
I'm so disgusting

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@ncteezdy Feel u

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@fr4gi1eb0n3s Same like ???

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@ephemeral_diary Thank you 😭🩷

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

Probably gained like 5kg in the past week, but I managed to re-dye my hair 🩷

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@thornsleftarm If you mean the hair colour - it's actually dark blue 🙂‍↕️ thank you!!
(It's the lightning, why it looks more purple in this one)

[⋆｡ ‧˚ʚ gremlin🌱ɞ˚‧｡ ⋆ @itsbreaddddd]

@kuromicIs Same here :'))
Sending you virtual hugs