@brigidrussell51 I still do a call and response to Megan to make sure I can still hear her voice. I can but sometimes the conversations are shorter than before. Thankfully she always closes with “I love you mummy”. And I reply “I know sweetie”. Through tears.
@brigidrussell51 Ah being Irish we really now how to do a good send off.Megan’s was a great show and a great tribute to her life. Hundreds were there. Such a comfort. I am so sad for people in Covid restricted to 10 or 15. Heartbreaking.
@FionaCMcQueen @allanjt2 @CNOScot Our friends walk alongside us everyday, unseen unheard but always there. A wonderful tribute to a wonderful woman. People talk about the Ayrshire Mafia, I think it is the Ayrshire family. Proud to be a sister.
@brigidrussell51 Oh Brigid. I’ve been saying this for years. My saddest NHS observation is the lack of time valued and protected mainly for front line staff to connect as humans, as teams, as valued employees. Maybe now .... and sadly maybe never.
@brigidrussell51 When I sit silently, I too can feel all the feelings. The feelings I want to feel and the feelings that are still too new and brutal to be endured. One day I may find me too the me I don’t want to be.
@brigidrussell51 Oh so well said Brigid. And in time you make find yourself in the guilt continuum. Guilt for feeling sad and not wanting to shake it off .because it signifies connection. And guilt when you notice your not sad and that somehow you make be letting them down.
@brigidrussell51 I often sit and ponder as to what has actually died? Apart from the physicality, clearly a big thing, everything else remains. The love, the thoughts, the urges. I just have an extra magnified presence of pain. It resides tucked behind my ❤️.
@brigidrussell51 I am often amazed at the force of the physicality of the loss. My whole body can be put into a vibration of loss which gives a whole different meaning to feeling the pain of loss. The events have larger gaps between them no but that’s no consolation either.