@goblingamedev I liked the new version more, only thing i prefered in the older one is the start animation, felt a look stronger looking kinda like a cruxifiction.
There is, and it's closely related to a genera, which is the opposite of trauma. It's an event so intense it ruptures your sense of self and makes your old identity impossible to sustain. But instead of the difference between old and new you becoming a whirlpool of pain and rumination, the rupture becomes a wellspring through which your soul pours into the world.
Examples include: Near-death experiences, finding the great love of your life, helping deliver a baby, meeting a hero and finding that he admires something in you that he doesn't have. Being forgiven by someone you once harmed and still carry immeasurable guilt for. Creating a work of art so beautiful you can't believe it came through you. Finding you are still loved after a nervous breakdown. Meditating until reality dissolves into indescribably beautiful vibration. Leaving a lover better than you found them. Loving someone unconditionally for long enough that you see them completely transform.
Because we are so resilient, and because the spirit naturally moves toward coherence and growth when it is in a safe and healthy environment, there are many more ways to rupture the self in generative ways than there are to traumatize it. It's one of the most beautiful things about being human.