i saw an article that read “healing can be so hard when your inner child wants love, your teenage self wants revenge, and your current self only wants peace.”
man, i really related to that.
one of my favorite things in the world is how we pick up little habits, phrases, and mannerisms from the people we love. i still say that one phrase my friend used to say a few years ago. i cook something the way my cousin taught or showed me. i discovered some of my favorite songs from someone i don't even talk to anymore. you collect so many pieces as you go about life. you are a mosaic of everyone you've ever loved, even for a heartbeat.
in love there will always be a risk of loss. how special we deem someone to be, determines whether we are willing to take that risk with them. so if you are going to risk loss, make sure it’s with someone great. someone you can learn from. someone that takes care of you.
I don’t think people realize how much strength it takes to pull your own self out of a dark place mentally. So if you’ve done that today or any day, I’m proud of you.
i always say i'm okay,
but to be honest i'm exhausted,
i am mentally tired of everything,
i don't know what's wrong with me,
i don't even understand myself at times.
Nobody talks about the hard part of upgrading your life. The working 24/7, missing out on a lot, losing friends/relationships because u’re too busy, always being tired, the wondering if you'll ever reach the goals you're trying to reach.
my life is nowhere near where i want it to be but i still just feel so grateful to be here right now. to show up most days trying my best to just make it happen for myself. the rough days make me appreciate the radiant ones. i pray i can give myself the life i feel i deserve.
I saw a post today that said " when you finally learn your place in peoples lives, your feelings won't get hurt" . I swear that's the truth and one of the most important life lessons you'll learn. Whether it's friends, family or whoever.