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idiot

[joyfool @joyfool20]

rahhh

[joyfool @joyfool20]

i used to only see splotches of colour but now i see all sorts of patterns, vivid colours, text, images. all of them unconsciously shown to me by my unopened eyes

[joyfool @joyfool20]

does anyone else just hate sleeping because the nightmares are terrible and the fucking voices you hear in your head as you fall asleep are just too much to cope with

[joyfool @joyfool20]

like my brain rapid fire hallucinates all sorts of random voices and phrases things that are totally out of nowhere when I'm falling asleep. i also noticed the things i see when i close my eyes have got more interesting recently

[joyfool @joyfool20]

@nihilistgf161 when i have quit things the cravings have never gone away honestly the best thing you can do is have enough of a solid reason to not do it that even if you have a craving you won't want to betray that reason. it's the only thing that's worked for me

[joyfool @joyfool20]

@K3nB3n wanting a house is reactionary we're gonna build cramped pods

[joyfool @joyfool20]

@ebolaman131 never attribute to stupidity that which is adequately explained by malice

[joyfool @joyfool20]

I've become increasingly more antinatalist as time goes on and I apologise to the people i clowned about it in the past, i was just being reactionary and had some idea that humans should have children if they so please

[joyfool @joyfool20]

@floridiancrack i honestly think it's difficult to have a child in this world and that not be automatically abusing them by making them live through this. especially as a first worlder it feels morally irresponsible

[joyfool @joyfool20]

i genuinely think that being a maoist third-worldist has fried my ability to enjoy life whatsoever

[joyfool @joyfool20]

50 notifications in my phone none of them from real people

[joyfool @joyfool20]

@BadMouse101 i just fail to see how a society could function without some level of necessary repression, especially a hypothetical future anarchist/communist one. how will you deal with militant reactionaries and other similar pests

[joyfool @joyfool20]

@Alyashevik been saying this. don't see any other way out except extreme brutality by the proletariat

[joyfool @joyfool20]

vaping makes my lungs hurt and smoking doesn't. smoking is also a much more beautiful ritual that requires much more self regulation, you can't just do it all the time in bes unless you a dirty ahh hoe

[joyfool @joyfool20]

sometimes you can vape too much and you have to take a break by smoking instead

[joyfool @joyfool20]

does anyone actually like my songs

[joyfool @joyfool20]

unfortunately this is usually banned but I think it should be allowed

[The 44 ⚽️ @The_Forty_Four]

WHAT THE F*CK HAS RUSSIAS SECOND DIVISION JUST PRODUCED… 🤯🤯🤯

[joyfool @joyfool20]

@mostlyoblivious did you put it on lava for a second and take it off

[joyfool @joyfool20]

@atelierjoshua because people care more about music

[joyfool @joyfool20]

and I can't fall asleep because i'm scared of my nightmares and the things I see as I'm falling asleep