@ecstatic_0 The fears and attachments, push and pull, are so old and familiar at first it’s hard to notice them. Thankfully life gives us stuff to start with.
The ego, this imagined personal self, is supported by series of secondary beliefs about how “I” do things, how I usually respond to events. As the ego is watched these support structures become more visible.
When I am frustrated with something I can notice my allegiance to expectations. These expectations are just imagined. Yet I take them so seriously. There is an emotional energy behind the expectations, fear or something like that.
The wisest thing for one to do is to catch hold of leading thought, the ‘I’-thought, and dissect it – who and what it is – giving thereby no chance to other thoughts to distract one.
Ramana Maharshi, Guru Ramana
I have so many ideas about how things should be. When I walk into a forest am I enraged because a tree is not straight enough? Why do I believe my expectations?