Maybe Tom Holland was an alcoholic or whatever but there’s just nothing compelling or interesting about an alcoholism journey that ends in your early 20s
You suffer because you try too hard to control. You cling to people, outcomes, ideas about yourself. You take it all so seriously and it makes you anxious and stressed. Release and let go. Live life the way you would hold sand. Not with a closed fist, but an open palm.
Every time I think it’s over I realize 24h later I was just being preemptively hysterical and depressive. I wish there was some way to learn from this repeated experience