first words Sonya Massey said at her front door were “don’t hurt me”
she was told “why would we hurt you, you called us”
when have those words meant anything when your black and woman in this country
when do those words protect you from not being murdered in your kitchen, in your bedroom, with your babies, or on your lawn
what is “reassurance”, in this place ?
rest in power Sonya Massey, and an abundance of love and power to Sonya’s family on this journey
A healing stage is disgust. Yes, disgust. You will be DISGUSTED by the people whose love you seeked. You will feel embarrassed about the choices you made and the people who had access to you who didn’t deserve it. Feel this feeling then let it go.
That will NEVER be you again.
As I grow older I realize safety is the ultimate luxury. Can I let you inside of my head without you judging me? Can I share my world with you? Can I trust you to be there when I fall? or to be still when I fall back? Will you keep what’s special between us—between us?
I’m in love with my life. I feel safe in my body. My nervous system is resting. My mind no longer races all day. I’m in control of my emotions. I set boundaries. I express my needs. I validate my feelings. I balance my emotions with logic. I’m no longer codependent. I’m free.
A divine woman will always be multidimensionally more than what you can fit in your mind. For that reason, she’s not meant to be understood. She’s an experience.