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literally don't follow me. I only shit post.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

Living on eggshells.

[adam mcintyre @theadammcintyre]

the ‘spread happiness’ fandom @ColleenB123 preaches, guess they learn from the best

[milkybear @kira_shida]

I notice that a protective mechanism in me is to downplay everything. Something bad, isn't that bad, something good, isn't that good.
It makes me feel inhuman, in a negative way.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

I want to ask her on a date
I want to ask her about her favorite movie, or series, anime, or what her love language is. I miss her. There's an underlying feeling that she's going to lead to heartbreak, but she's beautiful, and kind. Maybe heartbreak is worth facing for her.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

No matter how much I don't want to exist, there's no way in hell I'd give my mother the satisfaction. And sometimes spite is the last thing that keeps you going.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

#NewProfilePic

[milkybear @kira_shida]

It wasn't the first thing I thought about today, so maybe that's a step toward healing.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

☹️ sad

[milkybear @kira_shida]

It's unreasonably difficult to be alone with my thoughts lately.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

I wrote in my story days ago at this point, that my main characters were feeling hollow after seeing something tragic. Now I feel hollow.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

Things just don't seem as important now. I wish this didn't have to be your ending chapter. The realization that I'll never see you again, never joke with you again, slowly settles into being the new reality.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

Our nephew was shot and killed last night. He was turning 17 in a month. I feel so sick.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

I hate it here

[milkybear @kira_shida]

╮(＾▽＾)╭ amazingly stupid

[Karlovy Cross @Karlovycross]

Before the Storm.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

Saying さようなら to my mole. Nervous, but so excited to be fully healed.

[milkybear @kira_shida]

"oh if you want to have kids you better hurry up. You're not getting any younger." Says the woman who gave birth to me at 38. 😒