Bir gün, eğer iyileşirsem ve seni aşarsam, bunun gerçekleşmesinden önce şunu hatırlamanı istiyorum: Senin için ağladım, senin için endişelendim ve hatta seni kaybetme fikri aklıma geldiğinde nefesim kesildi. Senin için dua ettim, kendimi suçladım, senin için yeterli olmadığımı+
gmn kalo sebenernya dia udh ga excited tiap km muncul di notifnya? gmn kalo chatmu skrg cuma jd sesuatu yg dia baca bukan lagi yg dia tunggu? gmn kalo dia udh ga penasaran sama harimu, ga nyariin kamu & ga nungguin ceritamu? gmn kalo ternyata dia udh naruh perasaan ke orang lain?
I know I’m not easy to love. I’m a chronic over-thinker. I overreact more than I should... And every once in a while, I might be a little insecure.
But if I am in love with you, I can promise you wholeheartedly that you will be loved with so much passion and intensity that you’ll forget what life felt like before I came along.
You will always be cared for and you will always have someone in your corner.
Maybe I’m not the best at being loved, but I like to think I’m pretty good at loving.
as my final act of love, I will swallow every “please stay” and turn it into silence so you don’t feel trapped by my ache.
I’ll stop asking you to choose me. I’ll stop sending messages just because I miss you. Not because I suddenly stopped caring, but because I don’t want my love to feel like a burden.
So if letting you go is what finally gives you peace, I’ll learn to live with the silence. I’ll miss you quietly, love you from a distance, and hope that one day, letting go hurts less than holding on.
I'm not anyone's first choice.
I'm not anyone's favorite person.
People might tell me that I mean a lot to them, but there's always somebody they'll choose over me.
but why did you go from messaging me every day, several times a day, checking on me, showing interest in me and reassuring me to suddenly distancing yourself from me, messaging me less and less until you just. stopped..? am i really that disposable, replaceable.. unlovable? just say so..
nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live in that space between "things will get better" and "i can't handle this anymore." it's like your emotions are constantly swinging. leaving you both hopeful and defeated in the same day