Klaur

Living for everything that makes life worth living.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@highrollerfiles $96 million trust fund down to $1.5 million - jail was cheaper.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@ryzoq0 She picked him for freckles and left him for a CEO.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@ergodonx $10,000 investment, $600,000 return, and one hospital bed.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

She jumped from a speeding car on a Los Angeles highway. Hit the pavement face-first - 30 staples in her skull, third-degree burns across her body, skin grafts on her arms and legs. She had to relearn how to walk. Had to relearn how to write her own name. Her pimp was in jail. Nobody came for days. When she healed, she went right back to the same street corner. She'd been selling herself there since she was 13.

Asriah - known on Figueroa Street as "Exotic" - never had a chance. Her mother was a sex worker and a drug addict who lost custody when Asriah was two months old. Her father was in prison. She bounced between group homes, juvenile halls, and foster placements across Los Angeles, Long Beach, the San Fernando Valley, and Iowa - never staying anywhere long enough to call it home. She never finished middle school. Her brother, the only person she ever described as genuinely loving her, killed himself. She was completely alone by the time she was a teenager, with no family, no education, and no one looking for her when she disappeared.

She ran away from a foster placement at 13 with another girl. That girl went back. Asriah didn't. She ended up staying with the girl's pimp - without even knowing what he was at first. That was the beginning. Over the next decade, she cycled through six pimps. They beat her. They branded her face with tattoos - one inked his name across her cheek, marking her as property. They set quotas of $1,500 to $2,000 a night. The dates on Figueroa paid $40 to $60 each. Do the math - that's 25 to 50 men every single night on the streets of South Central Los Angeles. Every dollar went to the man who owned her. The only pimp she ever called "fair" was her last one - a boyfriend she begged for protection, who took half instead of everything.

The violence never stopped. A customer pulled a gun on her inside his pickup truck, robbed her, sexually assaulted her, and threw her phone out the window. She crawled back to her pimp and told him what happened. He told her to go back to work. The car incident was worse - a customer refused to pay after wasting most of their time talking, then floored it down the highway when she tried to leave. She jumped at full speed. Third-degree burns. Over thirty staples in her skull. Skin grafts across her limbs. Months of rehab learning to walk again, learning to hold a pen. Her pimp was locked up, so she lay in a hospital for days before anyone knew she was there. After she recovered, she went right back to the track. It was the only life she knew.

Her pimp Fly sat next to her on camera in a 2022 Soft White Underbelly update that got over 5 million views - casual, like they were business partners discussing a joint venture. Months later, Fly was arrested for murder and conspiracy. Crystal meth had been numbing Asriah for three years at that point. She said it was the only way she could keep working, the only way to stop feeling what was happening to her body thirty, forty times a night. She knew the drug was destroying her. She also knew that without it, she couldn't survive the quota.

Then came Josh — the father of her baby, Ben. She thought a child might finally be her way out. Instead, Josh shot at her while she was pregnant. Shot at her again after Ben was born - with the baby in the car. He called her a "slave" in front of his own brother. He hijacked her OnlyFans account, messaged men pretending to be her, and kept the money. When she asked him to meet at a police station to bring diapers for their son, he refused. When she needed him to watch Ben so she could go to the hospital, he didn't answer. Instead, he called DCFS - and they came with police to take her child.

Her original Soft White Underbelly interview has over 21 million views. In her most recent update, she's trying to find a $900-a-month studio she can't afford, driving a car that barely starts, studying for a security guard card through her ex's cousin. She relapsed the day before filming and had a miscarriage. She wants her face tattoos removed - says it would be like cleansing herself of the streets, so her son can look at her and see a different person. She's 23 years old. She's been on Figueroa since she was 13. And 21 million people have watched her tell this story without a single thing changing.

Could you have survived what she survived and still wanted to start over?

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

Her own mother sold her virginity at 13. Not to one man - to a line of them, night after night. Her mother injected her with crystal meth so she'd stop screaming and pimped her out to every stranger who'd pay. Men specifically requested the youngest girl available. Connie was the product. At 14, one of them raped her so violently she was left in a ditch to die - coma, ICU, two weeks on life support. Her mother took those same two weeks to even notice she was gone.

Connie grew up in Monroe, Louisiana - overweight, bullied, desperate for anyone to love her. Her grandparents literally bought her from her parents, paying both of them just to take her. Her father was in prison for murder and told the family he didn't want a girl. Her mother was a drug addict who wanted nothing to do with her. For thirteen years, Connie's grandmother - a woman who'd suffered a stroke the year Connie was born and could only use one arm - raised her as best she could. It was the only stability Connie would ever know. At 13, she moved in with her mother, and everything ended. Her mother saw a business opportunity in her own daughter's body. Men wanted a younger girl, and Connie was a virgin. "She made good money off of me," Connie says, her voice flat. Her mother skipped her past weed, past pills, past everything - and put a needle full of crystal meth into her arm at thirteen years old. Within a year, Connie was raped so brutally she was left for dead. She spent two weeks in the ICU in a coma. Her mother took the same two weeks to even come looking for her. She dropped out of school in 7th grade. She can barely read. She has never held a real job in her life.

At 16, two men pulled her off the street and told her to stop selling herself for her mother. So she started dealing drugs on her own instead. She fell in love with a gang member - the father of her first child. When a hit he ordered went wrong and retaliation was coming for everyone around him, he fired one shot into the floor to push Connie away, then put a .44 revolver to his own head and pulled the trigger while she watched. Her brother later shot himself too - and she watched that death as well. Within two years, she lost her grandmother, her grandfather, her baby's father, and her brother. Then her mother died of cancer. Everyone who ever meant anything to Connie was gone. She has a 16-year-old son from the boyfriend who killed himself and a 13-year-old daughter whose father was a stranger who paid for her body. She brought her son home from the hospital half-sober. When her daughter was born, she got high and never came back. She can't look at her daughter without seeing her boyfriend's head explode - PTSD fused the two moments together. Both children live with cousins in Louisiana. She set up trust funds for both of them. She's talked to her son since getting clean. She has never once spoken to her daughter.

At 33 years old, Connie is trying to get sober for the first time in her life. She moved to a new city, completed a 30-day detox, gained 50 pounds, and dreams of becoming a recovery worker. Every cell in her body is new. But the memories are the same.

Can you forgive a mother who sold your body before you were old enough to understand what was happening to you?

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@adelltells She turned one of the biggest divorces into real impact.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@batagonx People forget there's a real person behind every meme.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@0xEigenvoid $10 million in the bank made $3 billion easy to refuse.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

Her own mother sold her virginity at 13. Not to one man - to a line of them, night after night. Her mother injected her with crystal meth so she'd stop screaming and pimped her out to every stranger who'd pay. Men specifically requested the youngest girl available. Connie was the product. At 14, one of them raped her so violently she was left in a ditch to die - coma, ICU, two weeks on life support. Her mother took those same two weeks to even notice she was gone.

Connie grew up in Monroe, Louisiana - overweight, bullied, desperate for anyone to love her. Her grandparents literally bought her from her parents, paying both of them just to take her. Her father was in prison for murder and told the family he didn't want a girl. Her mother was a drug addict who wanted nothing to do with her. For thirteen years, Connie's grandmother - a woman who'd suffered a stroke the year Connie was born and could only use one arm - raised her as best she could. It was the only stability Connie would ever know. At 13, she moved in with her mother, and everything ended. Her mother saw a business opportunity in her own daughter's body. Men wanted a younger girl, and Connie was a virgin. "She made good money off of me," Connie says, her voice flat. Her mother skipped her past weed, past pills, past everything - and put a needle full of crystal meth into her arm at thirteen years old. Within a year, Connie was raped so brutally she was left for dead. She spent two weeks in the ICU in a coma. Her mother took the same two weeks to even come looking for her. She dropped out of school in 7th grade. She can barely read. She has never held a real job in her life.

At 16, two men pulled her off the street and told her to stop selling herself for her mother. So she started dealing drugs on her own instead. She fell in love with a gang member - the father of her first child. When a hit he ordered went wrong and retaliation was coming for everyone around him, he fired one shot into the floor to push Connie away, then put a .44 revolver to his own head and pulled the trigger while she watched. Her brother later shot himself too - and she watched that death as well. Within two years, she lost her grandmother, her grandfather, her baby's father, and her brother. Then her mother died of cancer. Everyone who ever meant anything to Connie was gone. She has a 16-year-old son from the boyfriend who killed himself and a 13-year-old daughter whose father was a stranger who paid for her body. She brought her son home from the hospital half-sober. When her daughter was born, she got high and never came back. She can't look at her daughter without seeing her boyfriend's head explode - PTSD fused the two moments together. Both children live with cousins in Louisiana. She set up trust funds for both of them. She's talked to her son since getting clean. She has never once spoken to her daughter.

At 33 years old, Connie is trying to get sober for the first time in her life. She moved to a new city, completed a 30-day detox, gained 50 pounds, and dreams of becoming a recovery worker. Every cell in her body is new. But the memories are the same.

Can you forgive a mother who sold your body before you were old enough to understand what was happening to you?

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

She caught chlamydia on her very first porn scene. Over the next seven years she contracted it three more times, plus gonorrhea, plus recurring bacterial infections - over 20 STIs total. During group scenes she started bleeding on camera. For her first anal scene, the pain was so bad they gave her heavy painkillers - because "when you're on a really strong painkiller it's a lot easier to take something like anal and smile." She had vaginal and anal tears that never fully healed. She thought she was safe because "everyone's tested." Testing was once a month. She was 18 when she started. She's now 25, and every scene she ever filmed is still online. "It's like having a virus or something that never goes away."

Her stage name was Alexa Cruz. She went into the industry thinking it would be soft-core - nude modeling, girl-on-girl, nothing extreme. "I thought I was gonna do soft-core and just nude modelling and girl on girl." But once she was in, the pressure to go further was immediate. More extreme scenes meant more money. And more money was the only reason she was there. Within months she was doing things she never imagined - group scenes, anal, scenes that left her bleeding and medicated. Seven years of it. She never told anyone what was actually happening to her body.

Then British TV came calling. Channel 4 cast her on "Date My Porn Star" - a show where three regular men fly to Los Angeles to compete for a date with a porn star. Jonathan, 40. Kevin, 20. Danny, 23. All three were fans. All three watched porn regularly. None of them had ever heard a porn star describe what actually happens behind the scenes.

She told them everything. The chlamydia on day one. The tears. The painkillers. The bleeding. The infections that kept coming back. The testing system that gave everyone a false sense of safety. By the time she finished talking, all three men were visibly shaken. Kevin said he felt "really, really sorry for her." Danny said it gave him empathy he'd never felt before. Jonathan - the oldest, the one who'd grown up on porn - said it "really took the wind out of me sails."

She left the industry in March 2013 after seven years. Now she volunteers with https://t.co/rzaRZB9gRn, trying to warn young women about what's actually waiting for them. She can't get a normal job. Nobody wants to date her. "Nobody really wants to date a porn star, web cam girl, stripper or escort." She can't erase what's online. She'll be 60 years old someday, and every scene will still be there - searchable, downloadable, permanent. She entered the industry at 18 expecting nude photos. She left at 25 with over 20 STIs, internal scarring, and a digital footprint that will follow her for the rest of her life.

Three men flew across the ocean thinking they were going to date a porn star. They left realizing they'd been watching someone get destroyed - and paying for the privilege. When a girl walks into porn at 18 expecting modeling and walks out at 25 with 20 STIs and permanent scars - and her footage is still making money for everyone except her - at what point do we stop calling it a career choice?

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@Mavixet She wrote a goodbye song and it cost her a million.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@sorennxbt Nine years of meth and the family still showed up.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@prodsystems_ The agent sold her limits before she knew she had them.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@Stirkel $30,000 on wine was insulting - because it was more.

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

She caught chlamydia on her very first porn scene. Over the next seven years she contracted it three more times, plus gonorrhea, plus recurring bacterial infections - over 20 STIs total. During group scenes she started bleeding on camera. For her first anal scene, the pain was so bad they gave her heavy painkillers - because "when you're on a really strong painkiller it's a lot easier to take something like anal and smile." She had vaginal and anal tears that never fully healed. She thought she was safe because "everyone's tested." Testing was once a month. She was 18 when she started. She's now 25, and every scene she ever filmed is still online. "It's like having a virus or something that never goes away."

Her stage name was Alexa Cruz. She went into the industry thinking it would be soft-core - nude modeling, girl-on-girl, nothing extreme. "I thought I was gonna do soft-core and just nude modelling and girl on girl." But once she was in, the pressure to go further was immediate. More extreme scenes meant more money. And more money was the only reason she was there. Within months she was doing things she never imagined - group scenes, anal, scenes that left her bleeding and medicated. Seven years of it. She never told anyone what was actually happening to her body.

Then British TV came calling. Channel 4 cast her on "Date My Porn Star" - a show where three regular men fly to Los Angeles to compete for a date with a porn star. Jonathan, 40. Kevin, 20. Danny, 23. All three were fans. All three watched porn regularly. None of them had ever heard a porn star describe what actually happens behind the scenes.

She told them everything. The chlamydia on day one. The tears. The painkillers. The bleeding. The infections that kept coming back. The testing system that gave everyone a false sense of safety. By the time she finished talking, all three men were visibly shaken. Kevin said he felt "really, really sorry for her." Danny said it gave him empathy he'd never felt before. Jonathan - the oldest, the one who'd grown up on porn - said it "really took the wind out of me sails."

She left the industry in March 2013 after seven years. Now she volunteers with https://t.co/rzaRZB9gRn, trying to warn young women about what's actually waiting for them. She can't get a normal job. Nobody wants to date her. "Nobody really wants to date a porn star, web cam girl, stripper or escort." She can't erase what's online. She'll be 60 years old someday, and every scene will still be there - searchable, downloadable, permanent. She entered the industry at 18 expecting nude photos. She left at 25 with over 20 STIs, internal scarring, and a digital footprint that will follow her for the rest of her life.

Three men flew across the ocean thinking they were going to date a porn star. They left realizing they'd been watching someone get destroyed - and paying for the privilege. When a girl walks into porn at 18 expecting modeling and walks out at 25 with 20 STIs and permanent scars - and her footage is still making money for everyone except her - at what point do we stop calling it a career choice?

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

Alexa is missing two fingers and half her teeth. She was handcuffed and raped for two hours in a room in Lancaster. She grew up on Real Housewives of Orange County - Bravo TV, cameras in the living room, millions of viewers. Now she's standing at a gas station in the desert smoking fentanyl. No phone. No ID. Her parents won't even pick up.

She's from Orange County. Her mom Lynne was on RHOC - the show about rich wives, champagne, and drama. Alexa and her sister Raquel were the teenagers in the background. That was her childhood. Cameras following her family everywhere. Everyone watching.

She moved to LA. Worked as a hostess. Then she did adult films - about a year. Got breast implants, a nose job. She was still in the orbit of money.

Then she started smoking speed. Met the wrong people. Speed turned into heroin. Heroin turned into fentanyl. Each one took something from her she didn't get back.

She crashed her car while high. Lost two fingers. Her teeth started falling out one by one. She stopped looking like the girl from the show.

She ended up in Lancaster - a desert city north of LA where fentanyl is cheap and nobody asks your name. She's been out there ever since.

What happened to her in Lancaster? She was raped. Handcuffed. For about two hours. She says she feared for her life the entire time.

Before that - a sheriff's deputy sexually assaulted her. She sued. Won $2.25 million. Every single dollar is gone.

She's been arrested over and over. Meth possession. DUI. 68 days locked up. Released. Back on the street the same night. Back on fentanyl by morning.

Her parents - the ones who raised her on camera for a Bravo paycheck - cut her off completely. "They really don't want anything to do with me." No money. No calls. Not until she's sober.

Does she miss them? She misses her mom. She misses her sister Raquel. She misses Christmas. "I would be there every Christmas and stuff."

What does she have now? "I have nothing. I have to literally start from the ground up. It's going to be difficult."

She's 33. She grew up in front of millions of people on one of the biggest reality shows in America. Now a YouTuber found her at a gas station in the desert - alone, high, no phone, no ID, two fingers gone, teeth gone, everyone gone.

When a girl grows up on a show watched by millions and fifteen years later she's standing at a gas station with no fingers, no teeth, and no one left to call - did the cameras protect her, or did they just film the setup for the fall?

[Klaur @klaurxbt]

@Ivdr_1 Depreciation is the subscription you forgot you signed up for.

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@paperhanderr All investing is value investing - the pond just moves.

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@SanjiOx3 The gambler’s instinct paid more than any art career ever could.

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@quelmylife Free lunch in uniform funded the $26 million dream.