elven

Elven • 2003 • ♂ • 🇫🇮 • tw ed (i have the disorders)

[elven @kuvottava]

And i just feel so disgusted thinking that my first actual trip abroad is gonna be tainted by me constantly thinking about how much better everything would be if i wasnt so fucking fat like oh my god i cant take this i need to just not eat for the next 2 months

[elven @kuvottava]

Have not been active in a loooong time but. I have a trip coming in july and im bigger than ive ever been and i really dont know how im gonna cope with not being able to lose as much weight as i would like before that... ive actually never been on an airplane before either-

[sera ᯓ★ @sera_fims]

“I need to lock in.” (Binges). “I need to lock in.” (Binges). “I need to lock in.” (Binges). “I need to lock in.” (Binges). “I need to lock in.” (Binges). “I need to lock in.” (Binges). “I need to lock in.” (Binges). “I need to lock in.” (Binges). “I need to lock in.” (Binges).

[elven @kuvottava]

MITÄ VITTUA. Olin kertonu sille et nää ei oo normi laihdutus juttuja vaan legit anoreksia ja se kehtaa sanoo mulle mun sen aikasista ruuista kuinka ne on vittu epäterveellisiä vittu tapa ittes saatana ja like ok ehkä ilkeetä mainita mutta. Se on mua isokokosempi myös😒

[elven @kuvottava]

En oo ollu aktiivinen koska noh sen jälkeen ku viime vuonna menin tammi-kesäkuus 100kg -> 75kg, nii sitte heinäkuu-nyt oon vaa ahminu ja painan taas sen noin 100kg. Lol.

[elven @kuvottava]

Koska haluun et se kuolee haha🩷 ja se myös kysy multa et mitä oon syöny mun "laihdutusvaiheissa" ja kerroin sille jotai random paskaa like pizza tortilla pohjasta ja tonnikalaa ja juustoa ja se oli sillee ah katos tossaki on niin rasvaa ja hiilihydraatteja voi voi

[Misha𑁤 ྀིྀིྀིྀིྀི @losingmmymindd]

Who up strokin their collarbones

[scαr @rcttenangel]

does anyone else feel like theyre not allowed to be themselves cause they’re not skinny enough?????!!!! or am i just weird

[ru ♡ @ruscvre]

im going insane

[vivi @mooncatvivi]

they should let me kill myself for a few hours to see if i like it or not

[el ⋆˚ʚɞ @lev8antr]

genuinely can someone explain why my life feels so much better when i’m actively starving? like ik ed is a mental illness but i truly feel my best when im at the peak of my ed. i feel more confident and happy and outgoing and when i eat normal/recover i get depressed

[˚₊‧꒰ა sophrosyne ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ @triggerette]

15,000kcals? damn i guess i’d have to lower my intake and go hungry for a day but id be rich

[Xyn @ONE5CHUUYA]

when i said i want my ed to get worse i meant the starving part not the binging part😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[elven @kuvottava]

@huhtikuum Oh my god tää on just niinku ainut mitä mä en pysty syödä koska mulle on tullu molemmilla kerroilla ku oon tätä kokeillu niin kauhee närästys et oon luullu et kuolen😭💀 mutta se ehrmanns vai mikä onkaa stracciatella on just nyt kyllä aika namnam

[dia. @intellectualspo]

Unfortunately trying to lose weight in a ‘healthy’ manner has never worked out for me, having full control is the only option